reply to post by DeReK DaRkLy
Originally posted by DeReK DaRkLy
I sometimes imagine that the inherent sadness of life (suffering, death) is actually nothing compared to the loneliness of the repeated re-realization
that there is no consciousness but the one "ME" that created all of this.
"We" are always ONE MIND.... but the means to escape such an incredibly lonely burden without discovering it too soon must come through we, the lesser
I had a fun mind game on this that also helps explore this theme.
There truly is Nothing. Nothing Exists. That statement is intended in both direction and is the foundational paradox that spins out everything.
To restate: Nothing Truly Is. For reasons that are still a mystery, including to itself... Nothing was/became/is aware that it exists. This awareness
started out as simply an awareness of Nothing, but it doesn't know what it is. Nothing could be perceived outside of itself. Because there is nothing
outside of itself. The Nothingness is All... everything begins and ends in Nothing.
In an attempt to understand itself, to understand how it came to be, it attempted to look "inside" of itself. However since consciousness/awareness is
"nothing", there was nothing to be seen there. The awareness of "I perceive Nothing, therefore I must be Everything opposite of what I perceive" was
the next step... aka evolution... of consciousness. However it had no idea what the opposite of what it perceived could be because it could not
So it began imagining. First... light (though not the same concept as visible light). This Light vs Nothing is not something we (or at least most) can
conceive or imagine in regards to what this most tiny basic fundamental level of awareness would be like. However we can see the reflections of it
within our own eyes, black/white, etc.
Then it imagined both Nothing and Everything at the same time... creating a division in awareness. Now it could finally perceive "Itself" and "Not
Itself". This was the first true illusion of duality... since it is *not* separate from the Nothing it declared as Not Itself, because in fact that
*is* what it is. The "Self" it imagined is exactly that, an imagination. However this doesn't mean it is separate either. In fact the imagined "thing"
is just as much a part of itself as Nothing is. Paradoxical in linear thinking... but not paradoxical in truth.
Thus the awareness began imagining greater and greater variety and complexity.... first blurring the "lines" between Nothing Self and Imagined Self...
and eventually splitting the Imagined Self (aka Light) into things that are both not Nothing and not Light (the start of "color").
Eventually this imagining gets so complex, with the ability to imagine something that operates without Nothing Self actively imagining it. Like
turning a radio off, then when you turn it back on, the music has moved forward however much time the radio was imagined to be off... computer games
fake this all the time. This creates the concept of autonomous entities able to give the illusion of continuing to act without the Nothing Self
watching. Now this is still just an illusion as what had to be imagined was the ability to Not Be Aware of something that you Truly Are Aware of.
Meaning... the "timer" that tells the self sufficient entity how much time has passed from when it isn't being imagined is stored in a hidden portion
of awareness (the origin of the Subconscious)... still actively being imagined but not visible to the Nothing Self. The first genuine lie told to the
Nothing Self by the Nothing Self but maintained by the new Hidden Self (or if you wish, occult self).
Remember, the Nothing Self and Hidden Self are the ones doing the experiencing... the Imagined Self is nothing more than an illusion and doesn't
actually experience anything itself.
Now as this step by step evolution of complexity continued, it got to the point where the Nothing Self could literally stop imagining, and the Hidden
Self would continue to create and evolve further complex possibilities based on these original small simple principles. This was interesting for a
while, but it was ultimately not satisfying because it still knew that the entities it was interacting with weren't real... only what it imagined it
might/must be as it must be the opposite of Nothing. So it decides to try forgetting that they aren't real... and experience it as if this truly is
who it is.
Then at some point... feel free to imagine your own circumstances... the Nothing Self remembers who it really was (perhaps the Nothing Self begane to
take advantage of the Hidden Self due to it not remembering that whatever it does, it is doing to itself). All those "friends" never actually existed
the way it "believed" they did. This is a devastating experience if reached by surprise, especially if it developed attachments to the things it was
"interacting" with, especially if it had done "negative" things to them while unaware.
Realizing that it could never escape this, it imagined a situation where it would leave within the Hidden Self the awareness of who it is, but only
allow the Nothing Self to reach this awareness once its "Imagined Self" was aware enough to understand this. So it takes the "plunge" of believing it
can never come back, with the Hidden Self being left to help it remember while always leaving it open for the Imagined Self to believe whatever it
wants. The Imagined Self is just a "clothing" the Nothing Self put on.
This is the foundation of As Above/So Below because NOTHING could be generated that wasn't a reflection/metaphor for something else... which is all
ultimately a metaphor for "Nothing" but it is obscured and veiled by so many imagined things, beliefs, rules, attachments, etc... that it takes real
work to finally see the "Nothing" in "Everything"... and further work to LOVE this as it is... for what it is... and no longer fear being Nothing, no
longer fear being Hurt or Hurting... and giving itself the ability to explore every possibility with the built in forgiveness for itself for whatever
it does to the things it imagines and loves while it is unaware of what it is.
edit on 19-9-2011 by ErgoTheConfusion because: (no reason given)