reply to post by religiousmurder
Okay, for starters: I love you. I don't know you, but I promise I love you.
With that said, you gotta get out there, man! You gotta live this life. "Knowing" all of these spiritual insights is nothing if you can't live it
anywhere outside of your mind. (I'm not trying to get on you, but this, I believe, is what you need to hear.)
I've been in the same boat before. Really. And I got into spirituality after getting myself lost in all of the conspiracies too. Although, I
realized, that in a way, I have been steered towards spiritual quests my entire life, i just never knew where it was taking me.
Anyway, do you know about The Law of Attraction? If not, I would recommend looking into it. Basically, we pull out physical experiences into
existences based on the level that we are vibrating at. If you continue to 'want' all of this to change, all you are going to get is more 'want.'
So therefore, you have to be the change that you want. You have to live the love you know is all around you. You have to give it out and see how happy
giving genuine to someone makes them feel, and thus makes you feel, and I'm not talking about romantic love.
You sound like a very intelligent person with a great heart. I can tell that from reading your post.
But like someone else said, you've gotta get out of your job. Get a new one. You have to do what makes you happy, because you have to be vibrating at
a happier level in order to continue to receive the bountiful gits this universe has for you.
As for killing yourself, I honestly hope that you do not. I think every life is worth living. And as for reincarnation goes, I also believe that if
you die at a low vibration without ever raising yourself (and others) up, then you will reincarnate at a lower level of energy. Meaning you will be
'dealt' even a harder life where the lessons will seem that much more difficult. But that's just my opinion.
As for the future, it is our responsibility to envision a brighter future! It is impossible to make this world better if we can't 'imagine' it.
Envisioning it is the only way we can truly manifest it. This is all tied in to the Law of Attraction as well.
Again, you are smart, with a good heart and fully capable of doing ANYTHING you put your mind to, you just have to DO IT, and to accept the fact that
you can not be someone else.
You can change the world, or at bare minimum, your life! Which will thus change your world, I promise.
Give people a chance to love you. And love them without any judgment or expectations.
I promise there are really really really good people in this world still that are all vibrating at a high level. And the higher you vibrate the more
of them will be attracted in to your life. I promise.
Do something every day that makes you happy.
Do something completely random and nice for a stranger.
Expect to see angels in all places, in all faces.
Say a prayer (set an intent) to find people to help on your journey.
Remember to look at the beauty that surrounds you!
Be the change you wish to see in this world.
You know all of this! You got it!
You even know the only thing keeping you back is your very own mind. :-p
I promise you are fully capable of doing this life in a way that makes you smile.
I promise you are fully capable of doing this life in a way that makes other people smile!
I love you.
I love you.