posted on Sep, 10 2011 @ 09:08 AM
Excuse me, for as I start this it might be better in the rant section, as it mostly has to do with my conscious ego, but who really cares? Some of you
may know by now by reading my posts how hard it seems for me to articulate my feelings and thoughts, yet I try another attempt. I really hope that
some here Identify what I am speaking about because for once it really means something to me. I attempt this after Identifying with a couple of nice
folk in person last night who helped confirm what I am saying here.
I never gave it too much thought, but I've always noticed a change of 'flavor of consciousness' if you will, that alters my perceptions through
every waking sense of my being. Whew, thats a mouthfull that cannot begin to describe fully with this language. I noticed this year, the summer/fall
transition hit me extremely early. It is usually around this certain part of the year that I may catch a virus,(or winter to spring.) Instead of a
virus this time, I have an unexplained injury between my two bottom ribs that made it extremely difficult to breathe for a couple of days. It healed
quickly, so don't fret. During the night that I received said injury, I was visited through my dreams by someone that wanted to teach me a lesson.
This is a person that I have never met in person that sometimes I become in my dreams. I hope you are following me. I'll go further.
All of my life I have had terrible insomnia. Once my father died (I was about 13), I have been able to concentrate on shutting my voice within my
head as experiences unfold behind my eyelids. I experience every sense during this time (some of which are not included in human biology and I cannot
explain if I tried.) It is a cure for my insomnia if I fall asleep in this state. In fact, this allows me to sleep for over 16 hours if I let myself.
I have physically met up with people that do the same thing, and we are actually able to mentally meet up in places and explain our experiences to the
t while finishing each others sentences. There are 41/2 of us. I say half because one is a k9. We have made it a point to go our separate paths
because we all share this sense of impending doom that clouds our spirit and throws us from balance into the negative, then positive till it
fluctuates so quickly that they become one which is our waking world. One of my brothers, (not by birth, but we share memories of before we physically
met) is a man of the Hopi Nation. I believe what he says that "everything is exactly as it is supposed to be", and that gives me great comfort.
Sorry I'm going off.
I began my sensory transition three weeks ago. It usually happens when it cools from summer to winter, and we have been seeing record high temps in
SO. AZ. this entire time, and I feel like it should be winter already. You know? That bitter sweet feeling? It is rather mundane compared to what I
spiritually experience, but it has a huge effect on me mentally and physically.