posted on Sep, 8 2011 @ 05:42 PM
It was 2 weeks after we have just had a 17yrs old Chinese foreign exchange student go back home. What a great experience; one i shall never
I was just pulling up to the driveway from working a 12hr shift, when the radio station broke in and said the reports are sketchy but that there would
appear to be an aircraft of unknown size just hit one of the trade towers in NYC.
"that's really odd" i thought, "FAA rules def apply and how they could be completely off their vector or heading given by the air tower is
completely unthinkable. the only way that might have happened would be either the pilot would have had a heart attack or he wanted to make a
Turning on the television to CNN, I was watching the smoke pour out of the building and realized that it was ALOT of smoke to be just a twin or single
engine aircraft. Within secs of me thinking that CNN confirmed my suspicions, it was a jetliner and it's flight#..
Now even more concerned that it was a passenger plane, my next thought was "hijacked'..had to be.. even if the pilot was dead .. the Co-pilot could
take over" as I was thinking this .. I saw the 2nd plane strike! I physical said outloud "OH MY GOD!!!"
I instantly knew USA was under attack, feeling the agitation and slight paranoia building, I brought the phone close to me in case I might get a call,
even though I was out of the military for 14years. I FULLY expected to get a call from either from a high ranking NCO or Officer.
My mind started to race as I began to try and logically think what I needed to do to prep in case i was to be called up, I quickly grabbed a piece of
paper and pen and started to write down ..full tank of gas to get to station to report in, write a one page letter to my daughters and family, etc..
20mins later or so, I hear Pentagon was hit. Pacing back and forth quickly with the phone in my hand in the living room all alone since gf and kids
were at school, wishing someone would call me.. and hour goes by.. no phone call. I'm now seriously getting upset and angry at the situation because
of lack of preparation and notification to citizens on such an event.
Where is the public address system/Announcement??!! where's the planning? Where's the phone call I should be getting?? 2 hours goes by, nothing.
I'm now past my bedtime to go to work for that night, I call in sick, if I was to fired, FINE! the silence is deafening and the only thing running
though my mind over and over is, America is seriously under attack I'm $#_*% sitting here and not one phone call, not one civil service
I had realized I had been pacing for an hour and a half, back and forth, and realizing I had to calm down, I made a pot of coffee, and poured me a
cup. As I just sat down to watch CNN reports, the first tower began to fall, again I said "NO WAY !!!!" out loud in total shock; sitting there
realizing , a wave of depression came over me. Watching the rubble and the even intently with the sound over halfway .. the 2nd tower dropped!!!
My head dropped and instant rivers of tears began to run down my face so much that there was no long any drips off my chin, they turn to tiny streams,
I dropped my full cup of coffee and began to weep out loud uncontrollably. (it's really hard to write this even now ) saying over and over
again .. NOOOOO, NOOOOO I got off the couch and buried my head in the couch cushion weeping hard and gripping the cushion in sorrow.
I lost complete track of time of how long I was there, I must have wept myself to sleep or passed out with my face a mess. Woke up with the couch
soaked still and me halfway laying on it. I heard the TV still on, so I turned it down a bit..Looking at the rubble, and the aftermath on CNN, getting
the updates, something caught my eye...
where were the National Guard? I had fully expected to see no less than a 2 full battalion of soldiers surrounding NYC in martial law of some
kind within 12 hours of the attack since 14yrs ago, they told us to have a complete list of places most frequently visited and friends and family
updated and would need to be able to report within 8 hours of being called. There were none, zero
My phone then rings, it's our exchange student, calling from a cell phone in China crying and said..
"everyone in China is praying for you right now in the square, I have to go.. but we are so sorry, I said "No one deserves this treatment, no matter
what country they live in (name) as I begin to choke up,
I can hear the cries of Chinese people in the background as she tells me me goodbye in a cracked voice. Tears filling my eyes again as i hang up,
drooped my head and let the tears falls uncontrollably....