I do not typically accept "Short Stories" as truth or real life, but this story seems a bit real in the way it is being presented. Is this in fact
a story of the "nature" of such a dire future? The suspended fear, the unknowing, the possibilities?
I think the OP is telling us something that is really happening to them. Perhaps I am a poor judge in wording and I am mistaken. For what it is
worth I think it is the scariest thing imaginable to have all your freedoms being taken and being 'confined' for an indeterminate length of time.
Considering the circumstance of our World, now is just not a good time to be "locked-up"; however, since I am an avid believer in personal
redemption and salvation I will try to think of impending incarceration as a "means".
It is quite possible, since the OP mentioned that they are disabled and without a job that this just might be the means in which they can survive the
"possible" catastrophes that are about to unfold (Cosmic,Earthly,and otherwise/Man). Now someone will be there to care for you, to feed you, and to
protect you from the masses outside the walls who are facing the world alone, without assistance.
The State will mandate your care and safety! Any medical problems can be addressed without the life-taking forces of worry or anxiety that medical
bills seem to create!
I never hear good things about prison food, but I imagine that any food is good food.
What I am saying is that perhaps this is a "Spiritual Gift", that what ever the future holds it holds it with you in mind! This is your journey,
accept it and keep saying to yourself that you can overcome these odds and come out a better person.
If you are open to it the worst case scenario can often be the best access to the future, to a place that is better than where we are today.
Of course, if it is just Great Spirit's intention to put you into a safer more solitary situation you might make it through this on "probation" and
you will find that the lifestyle change comes with more quieter times than before and that our "friends" were never really friends but a product of
the environment. Anything Alcohol-related, people or otherwise, are never really true but only imagined reality; who wants to be friends with an Ape
who ransacks another person's home and intimidates the occupants?
Good luck, Stories usual do have happy endings one way or another!