posted on Oct, 27 2011 @ 06:19 AM
Morning to all!
We find ourselves in the last day today! I wish my schedule allowed me to be up when the timer reaches zero tonight, but unfortunately morning comes
very early in my house. I will be on first thing tomorrow though to see what changes there will be to the site over night.
Happy late birthday OneHuman! So sorry we missed it! Had we known we could have thrown an online party for you here!! lol Good to see you back
though. You have been sorely missed around here.
I've had a couple of thoughts/happenings recently I wanted to share with all of you. You're own thoughts and feelings to them are always welcome,
though I'm posting this more to share than to inquire.
I know we "create our own reality" so I'm not certain how much of this has to do with our conversations here, etc, but I have been feeling quite
strange the last day or so. It's as if the energy around me is growing stronger. For years I have "felt" that something would "happen" within
my life time, and for several months now I have been growing impatient because these "feelings" have been growing stronger. BUT, for the past day
or two, the "feeling" has changed. This does not feel like my mind, this is an outside source. It's as if the energy of the entire planet has
increased. Also, this does not feel to be either positive OR negative... it just IS. Has any one else experienced this?
I have been dreaming a lot lately, but (I think due to the depression meds the docs have me on) I cannot hang on to them. The moment I wake up they
are gone completely. I have managed to keep a small clip from the other night that seems very interesting. I have no idea what led to it, but there
was a beautiful woman clothed in a skin tight black and white dress that flowed out around her feet. She was looking at me and smiling, and I kept
hearing either "choose" or "choices" (sorry it's kind of fuzzy) over and over again. She wasn't physically speaking, but the word was
definitely coming from her.
Something that, even at the time I thought was quite strange, happened during my trials a few weeks ago. I know that the process I endured is one
that is quite traumatic, and my mind could very well play tricks on me, or at the very least keep me confused about what was happening around me.
While I was in the ambulance, heading to the hospital, I kept thinking "this must be a dream, this can't be happening, I need to wake up". I
looked at the clock on the wall of the ambulance, and it wasn't working properly. The second hand kept getting stuck and would tick for a few
seconds in the same place before moving on to the next position. Then while in the ER of the hospital I noticed that the clock in there was doing the
same thing. Either this was an extremely odd coincidence (especially considering that clocks are an important aspect within these areas due to the
need to keep time for pulses, breathing rates, etc), or time slowed down during the course of those few hours, or something else entirely???? This
one has me stumped every time I think about it. The clock in the room I ended up in worked fine the entire time I was there, the only ones that had
any "issues" were in the ER and the ambulance. I know I'm about to sound completely off the wall crazy here, but this IS ATS... what if this was
something like a time slip? Or even a "transfer" into another dimension (either temporarily or permanently). Of course, from a more sane point of
view, those few hours were some of the most traumatic of my life, so the "strange feelings" I had throughout that time could have been purely that
and the clocks were mere coincidence...
Any way, I just thought I'd throw all of that out there to all of you.
Light and Love to you all
I look forward to what tomorrow brings... we WILL be here, but I can't help but to think there will be SOMETHING worth remembering.