reply to post by ReAdY2AsCeNd
It isn't horribly private. Just me...
I'm not afraid of sharing myself any longer. I decided to ramble, and just provide what came out...because that would be the most honest of
Thank you very much for forwarding this:
I hope that all is well. It is time that I message you. Open, I have put this off for so long. For so long I have felt as if I have been waiting,
waiting to wake up from this dream. I recently stopped meditating, almost two weeks ago. I have taken to writing the word "free" in my left palm to
remind me that none of this life "really" matters, to remind me that I can do anything and always feel good as long as I respect others as they wish
to be respected. I have found myself in one of the manuals, once. During meditation one evening, I sat and was able to walk towards the light within
the nothingness. I was then able to see myself sitting, and I was of brilliant flame. I have tried another while talking to people, looking in their
eye and slowly circling their iris with my own eyes. People tend to always have a response when I do this...as if I'm looking too far in.
Anyways, to the point.
Open, I am 21 and tired of things. I am tired, already, of being expected to hold a career for x amount of years, to be expected to have a wife and
two children and pursue the American dream. Upon reflection of self, it feels so good to imagine myself as free. To be away from this system that
seems to bind. If this is all a dream, then I wish to become lucid, I wish to live, I wish to breathe, and I wish to once more see with eyes that were
once closed. Even if nothing happens on or around the 28th , I will continue to walk the middle path and continue in my meditative journey while
simply living this life that I have been dealt. I will continue with my schooling and hopefully advance to lawschool if I am to remain within this
dream. However, I will never cease questioning the things that I see and feel when I meditate, and I will never cease to believe that there is more to
this reality than I can physically grasp with my hands. I will allow my faith to grow, and one day, I will find a way to become lucid within the
I so wish to wake up, but if that is not what is to be, then so be it. The one that lives within us all knows more than I in this scenario. It has a
path for us to walk, this lonesome road isn't so lonesome when you feel its presence...our presence. The all that is one lives within all, it
connects us all, and galvanizes the spirit. So I say to you Open, thank you...thank you for the opportunity no matter what occurs.
I would like to share something with you Open, my most precious experience that I have ever had within meditation:
Thank you for everything, Open. May I one day see you in the mirror of my soul.
Namaste my friend.