posted on Aug, 21 2011 @ 03:19 AM
I think (this is just my opinion, based on my own experience) that even in the so -called "awakening" process, we can go through a stage of needing
to vent and expell a lot of build up thoughts, ideas, and emotions.
I often see it like we each have a well inside of us, that can be a great source of wisdom and knowledge, but if we haven't been using it for a long
time, it can be poluted and muddied by years of throwing rejected concepts and emotions down there.
This well is your subconscious, all that you have denied and repressed has been shoved down there. It is muddy and dirty down there. When you first
reach it, what will spill out is rancid old emotion and repressed pains. Like turnign on the faucet and having the stagnant water coming out first for
a few minutes.
Just be very compassionate for yoruself, let it flow, and watch it go without attachment or trying to reason out it's source too much! If you feel a
bad mood, don't bother trying to attribute it to this or that event or reason, sometimes emotions just "are".
To illustrate this, I once watched a documentary on studies and experiments concerning the brain. In one study, people who were scheduled to have
brain surgery were used while their skull was opened, to attach electrodes to different parts of the brain, while they were awake.
With this one girl, they were talkign with her and stuff while someone stimulated specific parts of the brain, to see what happened.
One moment they stimulated the part that is associated with laughter. While chatting with someone, she suddenly laughed.
When asked WHY she laughed, she had a split second of obviously reflecting on what just happened, and claimed she laughed at a fork. Because at the
moment they'd hit that button, she had happened to look down at a fork- her mind made that association then.
They continued to ask her why and she claimed forks are just funny looking! Everytime they held one up she would laugh!
She continued to find forks hilarious, even much after the experiment. She had never before then found them funny.
So what is very interesting to think about is that our emotional movements, when our intellect tries to explain them, will make connections between it
and whatever outside elements were present at the moment it happened, and will glue these two things together ever after. Though it could be a false
A molecule we ingest, for example, could stimulate a certain hormonal secretion which causes emotional reaction of some sort (mood). If we didn't
know that was the source, we would look at the situation, or people, present right when we started to feel that mood and create an explanation for why
THEY were the reason we felt that way! -And they (or what they did, or that type of situation) would continue then to cause the same mood in the
future we run into it again, even without the substance we initially ingested.
In this case, then, if you have old stuff rising, old conenctions, emotions, and you keep trying to explain it, you risk making false conenctions that
will continue to drag you around in the future.
Just let 'em float by, dont judge yourself, nor the emotions. You'll have a better chance of having them cleared soon!