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Originally posted by Bdizzl3
reply to post by PsychoReaper4
I have found myself having the same problem as the OP, but what you said I agree with as well and believe it has a lot to do with the communication issue. People have been so conditioned to thinking with their ego and being so materialistic that it's difficult to talk about things from an "awakened" point of view *for lack of a better word*.
Its like you would have to catch them up on everything you have learned so far. I was just thinking this the other day that it's very difficult sometimes to communicate thoughts without having to tell an entire story or without the words just fumbling and doing no justice to the original thought what-so ever. Not to mention getting side tracked and either remembering tons of other great points you would like to bring up or having to explain the back story to how you came to the thought or why it makes sense.
Originally posted by Ahmose
reply to post by BohemianBrim
I also found that I can no longer talk on telephones for any amount of time. lol
It never used to bother me.. and I could BS with someone on the phone for hours..
But now.. I keep my home phones ringer off.. and almost never answer my cell phone (unless it's a text). lol
Once my enlightenment hit full on, and the altruism took full root, I realized that I am in essence a stranger in my own land.
I devote myself to quiet study of the soft-sciences, sciences, and gaining knowledge. yes i am a christian, but i was a pagan, agnostic, aetheist, then a believer again after witnessing little miracles which were right below the surface, and then suddenly profoundly loud in my psyche.
Originally posted by BohemianBrim
the more the focus of my mind goes inward, deeper and deeper in a search for truth, and the more insane and mind-blowing truth i discover. the more difficult and nearly impossible it becomes to share my thoughts. there are many things i would love to express, things i think would help you if i could share them. but cant seem to. words dont seem able to encompass the ideas. i want nothing less than to take the thought out of my head and put it into yours, but how? lol
saying these things out loud IS impossible now, mainly because i have no one around me that shares the same sort of "reference points".. if i dont think someone is going to understand what i am saying, i cant say it, because they will only misunderstand and that will cause "negative karma" of a sort.
i can rarely manage on the internet, because the audience is so vast, i just pretend im talking to myself lol. but lately... so often i have tried, and i have to keep editing and editing and adding and explaining.. i end up deleting the post because it just becomes nonsense. inside my head its a simple thing, but when i try to pull it out it becomes a monster. and if i go ahead and post it anyway, many people seem drawn to these posts, but then it is so hard to keep talking because i feel i barely expressed the idea, so... and again.. this is getting hard to express. but its like im trying to share a thought with people, literally, and when the thought sort of goes off, i lose it and cant come back to it....
when i am able to talk with people it always tends towards superficial. i can express myself as well as i feel like on things that dont matter at all.
even here, i get sucked into political threads even though, deep down, i know better.. i just want to talk to people.
but what i really want to express and talk about is the whole REAL DEEP "human condition"... i would need several decades.. and it would end up a novel.