I am an introvert
I don't know how many times I have been accused of being a creep, stalker, rapist, pedophile or a serial killer, only because I don't say much.
Why does my being quiet instantly mean I am any of those. To me all it means is that I had nothing important to say, and didn't see the point of
getting involved in an conversation about something meaningless. Or the topic was about something I really don't have any knowledge of, cars, a
certain video game, a certain band or what ever, and I didn't feel like admitting my ignorance on such a topic, or don't really care it to begin
with.
So what if I can be sitting next to you for hours and not say anything. I am lost in thought. What I am thinking about is bound to more interesting
than any conversation.
Thats not say I am adverse to social interaction at all, it just has to be something that I have knowledge about and interests me.
I often enjoy a good discussion about theology, politics, and science. Unfortunately its rare to find someone with an interest in these topics. And
even I find someone that shares such interest, it is often frowned about by social norms to talk about them.
Reading a book, surfing the web, playing video games, or just sitting and thinking is a thousand times more fun,to me than going out and
socializing.
I also am unable to make any emotional interaction to another human being.
Love and friendship to me are foreign idea's.
I feel I have either schizoid personality disorder or suffer from negative symptoms of schizophrenia. (Negative meaning symptoms that take away from
the personality, cognative functioning, and ability to perceive reality.)
edit on 15-8-2011 by FreezingVoid because: (no reason given)
edit on 15-8-2011 by FreezingVoid because: (no reason
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