I get angry. Regularly. In fact, sometimes I think that anger is somehow a "touchstone" for me.
Perhaps if I was enlightened, things would be different.
So "why" am I angry so often?
Here's the answer that comes to me, as delusional as it probably sounds.
I'm a rebel. In rebellion against the sheer injustice of our short and brutal undignified existence.
Example? (Warning, pessimist alert!)
Being a bit older than most on ATS, I do battle with the failing body
. I said, BATTLE. Daytime, nighttime, the prison cell that is my body is
a constant reminder that there is no justice.
Of course, it's probably foolish to focus on this thing that we all have to put up with, most seem to accept that this is just the way it is.
Obviously, the end is the grave anyway, so fighting this battle seems a bit futile.
But I take pleasure in the battle!
My health is actually not so bad, compared to others. No, I'm hardly in a wheelchair. But there's a
At one time, I was young also. I know how things were, and how they are now, and I also know that the future is only going to be worse. And yet, I
also "know" somehow that things "should" instead be better, not worse.
such a situation make me happy? I could put it the opposite way, which is to say, shouldn't I be angry?
I actually think we should all be "angry" at some level at this outrage that we call "life". No, it's not all bad, otherwise I'm pretty sure our
ancestors would have committed suicide long before we got here. But, whether we count ourselves the "optimist", or something less so, it's clear
there is plenty for the rational thinking person to "complain" about.
I see some posting here saying that anger is "unhealthy". Sure, about as unhealthy as not
having anger! It's a natural emotion, so it must
have a proper function beyond making a person ill. Common sense.
Can it be "healthy"? As someone already mentioned, it's helpful in motivating us when we see injustice. It's not all bad!
For me personally, my "anger" helps get me off the couch so-to-speak. I exercise more, I eat better than I would otherwise, by allowing my anger to
push me and motivate me. In my mind, I fight the good fight! Plus, if you're as pissed off as I am, you really do need to expend some energy, or
else the people around you pick up that vibe too easy. Not the best for business!
OK, so that's just the body! I won't even get into the greater injustices we are immersed in, from cradle to grave.
In my own life, anger has been a touchstone. It has been there to push me beyond complacency. I feel like I am a better "me", as a result.
Will I one day become more "accepting", and less angry, like the legion of ATS enlightened? Well, maybe the process is starting.
The problem for me is the conundrum of the "good" thing simultaneously being the "bad" thing. By the time you are wishing for the grave, accepting of
death, should we call this "success", or ultimate failure?
edit on 11-8-2011 by JR MacBeth because: (no reason given)