I was a very hateful and negative child as my parents died at early age, and I was left to myself. I had an agreement with myself, a contract if you
will, that I would never trust anyone, ever. I would fight for myself always, and never let anyone sway my judgement. It went "well" for almost 22
years, leaving me in a world full of trouble and hatred, and evil dark emotions.
My turning point came, when I met a 100% loving living person. Not because that person loved me or anyone else in particular, this person loved life
100%. I loved life 0%. I had this feeling like I was 90-95% evil if you will, feeling that if I continued on my path I would reach 100% soon, and that
would then be the story of my life, for life. I decided that I would try and give good a chance, get the evil out and the good in, starting that day,
8 years ago.
I am now 100% good, fighting for the good and always trying to help others see what I saw that day. I also learned that every "tool" I was using
from my evil toolbox, could be replaced by good tools instead. I was able to reach the same things and even further then I ever had with evil. As I
said, I chose the good fight, I chose love and light, and I can never go back, even if I wanted to.
Nice Thread, thank you for encouraging me to write this post, I really appreciate it.
Joe