Originally posted by budski
During continuation training in Belize I was patrolling near the border, and we came under fire after challenging them, them being an incursion.
I dropped and picked a target.
I put 3 rounds in his T.
Turned out he was 15 years old.
I can't let go of that.
It haunts me every day.
edit on 1/7/2011 by budski because: (no reason given)
That is some heavy stuff my friend.
I don't really know what to say..
other than to say that nobody 'goes' and exits this world until they are supposed to.
I do not think the circumstances surrounding how we "go" really matters...
Even though it appears to, to us.
Our minds tell us that "this is bad, and shouldn't have happened"..
But the truth is that it could happen no other way.
When it is our time to exit this world, it is our time.. and it will happen precisely when it is meant to.
No sooner, no later. By whatever means required.
We do not know the circumstances of this boys life,
Perhaps he spent 15 years in hell, and "did his time"..
and while you think you "destroyed" him..
You very well may have done the opposite,
Freed him and let him go.
This is how The Universe works..
(not trying to be all "new - age" or anything)..
But i have learned, without a doubt.. that everything that happens, no matter how "good" or how "bad" it appears to be... Happens for a very good
reason.. and things could not possibly work out any other way.
This young man was ready to leave, His time to go was precisely the moment he went,
and his way of going was precisely the way it was meant to be.
I'm sorry you had to be the one the universe chose to help in carrying out this young mans exit..
But again.. It could happen no other way my friend.
He is at peace, and you helped him find peace...
Probably for the first time ever.
Death is an illusion , We do not die, We cannot die.
I have experienced "death" for nearly 7 minutes..
and let me tell you.. "death" is one of the biggest lies/illusions ever.
It doesn't happen.
We simply move on when it is our time to..
How we move on, is of no consequence.
Having said all that,
Im sure it does not make you feel much better about what you went through.
Just know that there are no 'mistakes', no 'accidents", and nothing happens that does not need to happen,
and everything that does happen, needs to happen, and will.
Please be happy that you have been able to remain "human" , after being involved with something that does everything it can to take away ones
I hope you find some peace brother.
Love n Blessings