reply to post by wildtimes
Well.... i guess i have a story you might be interested in. I am a "psychopath" if that's what you will call it. I was clinically diagnosed when i
was 5 or 6, apparently i was fond of killing frogs and ants at a young age. I scored very high on narcissism, but thats all i really remember from my
test scores, my parents never really wanted me to see them for fear that knowing the intensity of my gift might trigger in me to elaborate on it.
From what I've gathered over the years, 1-100 people in the US are sociopaths/pyschopaths, which is quite alarming, however most of them don't know
it, I mean they probably do, but they havent been tested for it is what I mean. I understand your fears towards my type of people, but honestly
without the tests I would have never really known. My parents always kind of shy'd away from me once they found out, I think they interpreted it as
me being some serial killer, but its w/e. I grew up in a middle class family, good upbringing, parents still together, never really got in trouble and
i got good grades, never really dated, and found out i have ADHD. I never really knew there existed a difference between me and my peers, other than i
was hyper and my mind really raced all over the place whereas they could sit in class all day like it was nothing. That was hell for me.
Nothing really seemed out of place to me, in fact while i was young i kinda relished in the fact that i was a lil different, you know like i was meant
for something great because i really didnt understand my "disorder", though i dont consider anything to be wrong with me. The biggest point in my
life where i realized i was extremely different than everyone else had to come when my grandfather died. We were a very close family, and when i found
out i was 17 yrs old. I came home and everyone was crying, i should have joined, but i didnt, to this day i still shrug it off, its death, it happens,
no use in crying over spilled milk. A couple weeks later i realized where i should have been sad and cried, i didnt, in fact i cant remember ever
crying, ever, over anything.
As i grew older i started to realize major differences between me and "you people". Where your decisions often involve emotional considerations and
how things affect others around you, i tend to be more selfish. I consider this more of a blessing than a curse. I see a lot of friends and family who
make decisions based on whats the best option for themselves and others around them , whereas I, the "psychopath" really only do what benefits me.
My decisions have never harmed anyone, and Ive made sure they didnt, but i really dont see the point in considering other people on decisions that
affect my life, call it what you want, but to me that is how you should be living your life, what you want, not what others want you to want or what
they think is best for you. To me narcissism can be a good thing if observed properly.
I guess I will cover some general things, I know a lot of people are interested in pyschopaths because they really cant understand what its like to
live without emotion. We dont entirely live without emotion, we observe other peoples emotions daily and they are quite easy to pick up on. I know how
im supposed to feel in certain situations, and faking it, while it may be a lie, is generally done by myself to make others around me feel better. I
still know what its like to love, i cant imagine a life without my parents or siblings. will i cry when they die, no, but that doesnt mean i dont love
them and want the best things in life possible for them. Pyschopaths are very protective, i would do anything for my family, anything...
Dating is another story, Ive struggled a lot in relationships, not because im distant, but mostly because my partner was interested in other people
. I've been cheated on twice, and it sucks. I dont know why, I hear these horror stories of how pyschopaths ruin lives, but i dont understand how.
when i start dating someone its like a #in drug. When im with them i feel whole, i feel wanted, i feel what my psychopathy is supposed to feel like,
it feels great, im not gonna lie, being a socio with a partner who cares for you is the biggest #in ego trip high in the world. And to me its
something i dont want to let go, I would do anything to please my partner, because i dont want them to leave me because life as a socio is very
lonely, there is only you who knows you and it gets hard sometimes. I have never gone crazy on breakups, i just move on, although there are very deep
depressive states for our kind if you let yourself go there. And these arent your zoloft cured depressions, they are intense and they can be hard as
hell to get out of, suicidal thoughts enter our minds a lot when we are depressed. And by depressed i dont mean o i lost my job # life sucks, i mean i
got a B- in english class im seriously considering killing myself because im smarter than everyone else. I know it sounds scary, but if you realize
your disorders complications with depression you can quickly pull yourself out of it. its all about pleasing the ego. Avoid depressed psychopaths,
they are the ones that kill people, seriously, avoid them at all costs.
Lies. Pyscho/Socio's lie. its easy. Here is the #1 rule that everyone should know in life, regardless of whether or not you are a pyschopath.
People will believe a lie because they want it to be true, or because they are afraid it might be true; people are confident so they will
believe a lie is true because they are too stupid to believe themselves to be wrong.
I try to lie as little as possible, sometimes its hard though, i have to admit. 100% i have never lied to harm someone. The only lies i tell are to
keep from hurting people and to mess with their heads (comically, only with friends). I hate lying, i despise it, and its probably because I can do it
so well if i want. My father used to beat me as a child when he would catch me lying, and everyday i thank him because it kept me from becoming a
monster. As a socio we are able to convince ourselves of something being true, scary i know. It is this confidence in our lies that gets people. Here
is a tip to catch them. As soon as they begin getting detailed, im talking like 3-4 sentences of details about something, its a lie. We are very
smart, we know what goes into a lie, and what will make you believe it. details. you want details. dont fall for them. If you want to catch a
sociopath in a lie, argue against it. Ask for proof, if they immediately get angry, lie caught. Most socio/psycho's have violent mood swings and
these are brought out when people disagree with their lies.
I hope this wasnt a tldr, i know it really was, but whenever i see pyscho/socio posts it hurts me to hear all the bad things people say because in a
way it attacks me, as if i fall into the stereotype. Some of you will say this was just an ego boost, but it isnt, i saw OP wanted stories and i
figured i might share mine, at least so people know we should not all be avoided. If you guys have any questions for me feel free to ask, i will give
Not all of us are bad, i have dreams of bettering society, of giving back to the world, even if im atop the throne deciding whats best for you
joke i joke