posted on Jun, 29 2011 @ 09:49 PM
Here is my insight, if anyone cares.
I have never been to a professional meta health expert so any ideas/claims/ect are just based off of what I think and have experienced. Nothing
First, I would like to point out that the original post did not separate sociopaths and psychopaths. They are two very different states of mind.
Before anyone decides to believe they ARE the same, go do some research please.
Now, my experience AS something. I say something because how I perceive the world falls in line more with psychopaths but I am aware I am different.
So, for all intents and purposes let us say that I am a Psychopath that has the ability to self reflect. I know, an oxymoronic statement if there ever
was one, but the truth in my perception at least.
As far back as I can remember I did not have emotions in the dictionary sense of the word. However, I understood how they worked and how most people
reacted to certain situations. So I used this to my advantage at every chance, much to the dismay of others. However even as I was was negatively
affecting someone I would make it "their fault". This allowed me to use this person at a further date if need be.
Time progressed and my life went through many changes, most very negative. I had stated earlier that I did not have emotions in the dictionary sense.
Yet I can still feel, it is just very base. I can get enraged, happy, intrigued... But it never lasts long. They do not normally play a part of how I
handle people or situations.
More time progressed and I had my first taste of a long term relationship, I learned a lot in it. I could become possessive, even obsessed, but not
love. I also realized that while most of my habits were amazing on the short return, I had no plans or ability to survive long term. This struck me
as silly, so I changed my habits to help instead of hurt people as long as the return was long term gain. I can trade instant satisfaction for long
Lastly I will come to why I wrote this. I view mostly everything as a game. Really, as the only game that matters and I want to play it well. I want
to play it so well that at the end, when I lay all of my cards on the table, people realize that I was nothing they knew, but someone they were all
indebted to immensely in some way. So, how do I improve in a game where I am the player with the upper hand? I teach people to understand how I
If anyone has further questions feel free to ask.