posted on Jun, 29 2011 @ 12:45 AM
I was bullied a lot in grade school. I was a quirky kid, grew up to be handsome.....imagine that.....but I was insecure, had thin skin, the kids
picked up on that and had a field day. I was always big, not fat, but very tall and very strong, but I never did anything.....and the kids picked up
on that. One day in eigth grade I'd been getting it all day....everyday....as usual, and I just snapped on a kid, threw him against the wall, turned
and literally threw him onto the overhead projector(big size difference, plus adrenaline, I don't know how I did it, but it happened) and that
changed everything. The rest of that year and high school were a breeze. I remember walking into the lunch room that day, news had spread, and one
of the cool guys tapped my shoulder and was grinning ear to ear.....
That being said, I think it's very unfortunate that I was bullied enough to snap.....I didn't wan't to snap. I think fondly now sure, moment of
glory....but at what cost? I'm not a fighter now......very well could have turned out that way if i'd basked too long. If I'd began thinking that
was the ticket to a comfortable life.
The scars from bullying still exist in me. I have maybe 4 very close friends, but not many acquantences beyond that. I'm still very insecure, and
it's wearing a very cocky mask......to keep people away. I don't really trust anyone......hence being on this site.
Now....I don't blame this on the education system at all, I was at a very well funded private school. What would it teach the bullied kids if
teachers and faculty stepped in as protection and coddled the bullied? BAD THINGS. You think the cops are going to do the same as adults......for
normal bull#? Think again. Disagrements and assholes are apart of everyday life, I believe it's best for our children to know that no later than
age 8 or 9, and learn to conduct themselves in a civilized manner within the society in which we have forced them to exist. It's in there best
interest. I blame my situation on my parents. I wasn't confident because Dad was always critical.....and I was too scared to fight back, for fear
of getting in trouble.....because I knew Dad had hell to pay at home if I did.......I thought I was being a good boy.....and "turning the other
cheek".........# THAT BULL#. I was being a sucker and did not have the proper adult guidance to get me past a cruciel hurdle. Public acceptenct.
If your kid is bullied......help them give other kids a reason not too.......and if you aren't imaginative enough to do that........U2U me for
Now that we're past all that, I'd like to say that I now consider myself well adjusted....ish.....sort of.......nah....I'm a crazy #, but I like