posted on Dec, 20 2011 @ 05:11 PM
I'm feeling anxious over recently starting to hear voices. It began about a month ago, and is the second time I've had this experience, having had
cannabis psychosis in the past and hearing the same type of voices. This time it doesn't seem to be drug-motivated.
I hear my parents arguing about me in their bedroom across the hall. It's always the same, my Dad criticizing, my Mum defending me. it sounds very
quiet, but is very close in sound to what they actually sound like when they are talking in their bedroom.
So they could just be having these discussions then right? Except my Dad's a very heavy snorer and I've heard him snoring many times over the past
month when I hear these voices, and ocassionally its happened when I'm elsewhere entirely. Although usually it's in the wee hours. I asked my Mum
about it and she confirms its all 'in my head'.
I'm very open-minded and would like to get an alternative perspective on what hearing these sorts of quiet whispers could mean. If I really focus I
can make out my parent's voices and words. The clinical diagnosis is that my subconscious is creating them out of my own fears. They always discuss
my biggest fears.
This actually promoted me to wake my parents up about a month ago when they began and explain to them that I have a gender issue, something I've
never discussed with them but should have. So, in a sense, the voices help me face my greatest fears by understanding them better.
If there is some kind of spiritual basis for this, such as the 'psychic attacks' I've heard about, is it necessarily negative? I faced my fears, as
I did last time I heard them.
Having said that, they've persisted over this last month on most days just as I'm feeling so much better generally, the best in years, most nights I
feel the positive energy sucked out of me almost vampirically. I woke up to hear them a couple of nights ago, and screamed because I felt a great
chill and sense of dread as I awoke. That hasn't happened to me very often before.
Please help. Thanks.