It makes me so mad, I scrounge up the money it takes to buy a course, only to find out that they are selling something. I save up over a hundred
dollars to buy a SEO course, only to find out you need to shell out more money to make a few bucks. Buy my program, buy a domain, then pay rent on a
server and hope you make money. I am willing to put in the work, but damn.... No wonder these SEO gurus are driving ferraris.... They hook you on a
course, and want you to buy their programs, and then host sites want their piece of the pie too. I wish I started this when I was making a living, I
would have laughed at the price. I am not making money now, except doing some work for family in season. I save enough money for a course, thinking
hey, maybe I can make some money online, doing stuff I already love to do. Come to find out, unless you have an income already, you don't got a
chance. I hate being negative, but hell....
I am trying my best to transfer from busting my ass physically, to making money off my creativity... Nothing I try is ever good enough! Am I cursed,
probably. I am just so sick of everything right now. I do "the right thing" over and over and keep getting screwed. I invested in a house, renovated
it, and when it was about 3/4 paid off it got repossessed. That was supposed to be the safest investment, and blew up in my face.
I am falling back into a slump, and I don't know what to do to stop the downward spiral. I thought I had a job for the spring to fall, but it turns
out the foreman is retarded or something. He only wants to hire morons that don't know the first thing about carpentry for framing, train them until
they do know what they are doing, then fire them. I was over qualified I guess, I know how to use a skill saw, a chop saw, and a table saw, and was
willing to bust my ass. I hate canada so much, people are so backwards here. They talk for more than half the day, instead of working!
I am just so confused, I am used to getting paid per SQ foot, not per hour. And the per hour pay up here is retarded. I just see as trying to pretend
you are working, to be dishonest. I guess if I am to survive in this backwards place, I better get good at acting like I am working really well. Get
as little done as possible, to stretch jobs as far as they will go. Maybe I should just check my conscience at the door.