reply to post by michael1983l
“I have to appologise, I have brought on the end of the world”
That’s okay mate, it happens!
No offense…but you’re giving yourself too much credit! You aren’t going to cause the world to end…I know this because…the world is not going
to end in 2012. I promise.
(this is my universe too!)
Regarding your debts to your parents. I’m currently in the same boat…my parents have bailed me out tons of time using money they really don’t
have. I feel terrible about this as well…especially because they are both retirees and so they are on a fixed budget.
But remember, your parents loaned you the money because they love you and if the situation was reversed and they needed your help….something tells
me that you would help them in a heartbeat.
Likewise, 20 years from now…your grown up child might one day need financial help…and I’m sure you’ll help him/her as well. It’s what
families who love each other do…we help each other (and usually with a lot of grumbling and the occasional guilt trip!)
So don’t beat yourself up…the mistakes we make in life are not what defines us…what defines us is how we pick ourselves up.
If I can go out on a limb…I think the reason you’re so worried about “ending the world” or that the Devil has your soul…is because you are
feeling so gutted about not living up to “your own” expectations and perhaps you feel like you’ve let your parents down. It’s almost easier to
believe in existential threats than face the people you love so much.
But I don’t think you need to worry about facing your parents. We can’t change the past, but you can change how your parents perceive you and most
importantly how you perceive yourself. This is achieved through believing in yourself and by making positive actions. My advice: is to work as hard as
you can in whatever situation you find yourself in and try to be a decent person.
And obviously, you are a decent person, or you wouldn’t care enough to sacrifice yourself for your family. And you definitely wouldn’t care about
borrowing money from your folks.
You’re articulate, have strong sense of what is right and wrong, and if you made it through boot camp…you definitely can draw upon a strong work
ethic. So the only person who can hold you back --- is you!
I honestly don’t believe that you can give your soul to the Devil. But if you’re really worried, when you’re in a quiet, contemplative state,
sincerely recant your deal with the Devil and give your soul to God. From what I understand, God will always out trump the Devil.
Best of luck to you and please don’t be so hard on yourself!
edit on 15-6-2011 by OwenandNoelle because: can't spell