reply to post by Johndeer1991
my friend you sure are in love with that girl!
your feelings were hiding inside you so many years and when your heart loved the girl they got out!that's why you have the strange feelings that you
can think so fast etc.,it's because now you don't use just a part of your brain,but the most of your brain,plus your heart
so as long as everything is fine with that girl you will feel great and some kind of a 'superhuman'
when everything fails with the girl,you will feel like you are already dead,like you don't have any purpose to live for,like no one loves you and
that you don't have to live..
try to control your mind by don't reacting fast,try to think first
i have the same expirience two years ago and i know how you feel
Relax and fully put your self in something you really love(i prefered writing and playing music)
Something else i do,is to control my feelings,and transform pain into hate for the person that hurted me.
That's is if you want it,but i must inform you,you will feel good,but you will be 'bad'
First,think and decide which person(s) are real friends to you,and really love you.to this people you will stay loyal and protect them
Then,empty your mind and think only your worst enemy,your "lifelong" rival.let yourself to fill your blood an body with hate
Now,act normal,live yor life,but when some one tries to hurt you,just make your self to think that you DO NOT CARE about it.Think that the person who
hurted you,doesn't deserve anything,especially your feelings.Hate this person,and just make your self to laugh
People may think you are paranoid..
You are not,you are just protecting yourself for being 'burnt' again..
I don't know if i helped you,but if you try what i told you,i'd like to know the results