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Originally posted by 7thcavtrooper
I would be curious to hear a professional mental heath practitioners comparison of a combat veteran's mentality and civilian sociopathy.
Originally posted by xxblackoctoberxx
i suffer from ptsd/depression/anxiety/panic disorder
it all kind of crept up on me and ive been living in hell for the last 3 months,
living in the moment is not what its cracked up to be, i'd say its more like being constantly on edge just waiting for something terrible to happen and you are so fixated on making sure you're not dying every second that you can't think of or care about whats in your future. i personally am only hyper vigilant only to changes in my body.
but yes, other half of it is...
in this time i cant help but play with the idea that my consciousnesses has been altered. i feel that ive finally found my answer to how reality works and whats going to happen when i die. also i feel i havent gotten into REM sleep for more than a few minutes over the last few weeks but every morning for a few hours i go into this weird exhausted trancelike dream flash things that seem so incredibly real and when i wake up i feel as if ive just had either some precognition of a situation im gonna end up in or that im living my life in a different dimension while sleeping. but at the same time it makes me feel delusional and crazy.