posted on May, 25 2011 @ 03:12 PM
It's been quite some time since I've posted, and I've made a thread or two about these experiences, or at least mentioned this girl in some posts
Instead of linking to past threads though, it makes more sense and is probably easier to try my best and explain it all right now.
Since I was really young, I think a pre-school 'student' at my Mom's ex husbands first house we all lived in... There was this girl I would see...
Well, the entire house was haunted and I'm not the only one who saw and experienced things - But this is about the girl, and not anything else.
The first time I've ever remembered seeing her, or have been told from a family member that I saw her was when I was having a bath, I was the only
one in the bathroom and was just sitting in the tub doing my thing, I must have been younger than five years old at this point. We were going through
tough times I believe because my brother had asthma very bad, and also kidney problems. My mom told me that when I was in the bath, I ran downstairs
and told her I saw a little girl looking at me in the mirror and her face was cut up etc.
Now, I don't completely remember this experience, but it is the earliest one I can report.
The second one I remember personally, is when my brother and I were going to bed. We were both really young still and shared a room (bunk beds), I
told him one night "Let's say a prayer". I've never been religious, so I'm not sure why I decided to say it but I think back then I did believe
there was some sort of God, I must have.
Before he could answer, I heard the voice of a little girl, and I remember exactly what she said.
"A prayer? Okay."
It wasn't my brother, it wasn't my mother, and it wasn't me.
I wasn't the only person in the house who started seeing this girl though.
When my brother was downstairs one day playing with some toy cars or something, my mom from upstairs yelled for him to let the dog out. Before he got
up to do it, he heard it again - But a young girl's voice, saying. "Let the dog out."
I wasn't there for this, but he did tell me immediately after it happened.
I'll fast forward a bit, now I am in the fifth grade and am about ten years old, I don't live in that house anymore but I do still see this girl
periodically, this was the first time in years that I saw her again - And I remember how she looked and will remember for the rest of my life.
It was after school, I was at my auntie's house every day after school because it was close to the school - My dad got me everyday after work. I was
the only one on the main floor, both of my cousins were upstairs doing their hair, and their mom was up there with them.
I was watching television, and to the right of the TV was a doorway that lead to a laundry room and bathroom. Out of nowhere I saw a little girl
standing in the doorway. Again, these were dark days for me and that seems to be whenever she showed herself.
She was just standing there looking at me.
Blond hair, darker eyes, she had a blue/pink shirt on (colour blind), and light jeans.
Honestly, at that age I thought this girl was gorgeous, if it WAS and IS the same girl I saw at the old house, she's nothing like what I told my
mother she was.
Immediately after seeing her, I began crying. I bawled my eyes out and I ran upstairs. Surprisingly I didn't leave any # stains behind me because I
was scared so bad.
Now, fast forward a few more years and I am about 13-14 years old, I am living with my dad and spend all of my time in the basement. I lived in a very
small room and kept to myself. I was going through severe depression at that point because of my mother's drug addiction, and haunted by my past of
her husband at the time, and her abusing my physically. I was on the verge of killing myself.
Every night I went to bed I would hear this little girl talking to me, most of the time it was gibberish, but sometimes I could understand her and
would try communicating back with her. At this point in my life I thought I was going crazy.
One day, I'd had enough of everything and was going to take all of my anti-depressants and hopefully overdose. Something happened though, and without
any thought put in to it I picked up the phone and called my mother in hopes that she could help me. I hardly remember doing this.
I spent a week in a youth psych ward sort of thing and eventually was let out because they thought I was okay, I'd convinced them I was anyway. It
was a big eye opener for me.
Now, fast forward to last year and I started coming on ATS... I mentioned this girl over and over, in a few threads and some people told me that she
was attached to me by the looks of it.
One person asked me if I had bad posture or something, I do in fact have terrible posture, I am always slouched and I have a terrible back. Apparently
this could mean she is and sits on my shoulders or something? I've seen something like that in a movie a few years back, I believe the movie was
called Shutter, and this spirit was on a guy's back. I suppose that is a way of indicating it is attached to him?
Either way, disregarding that I still hear and heard these voices at night, usually it would be right before I fall asleep. I can't remember anymore
what she would say, but it was just a few words and then I'd open my eyes completely wide, and struggle falling asleep again.
To be honest, I never feel alone - I'm not paranoid, because I've grown to accept and appreciate this girl in my life.
Now, last night I was thinking about her again because I was talking with my past step sister (parents are no longer together) about the house we
lived in, she told me a few things but not a lot - Nothing worth mentioning anyway.
So this little girl's been on my mind a lot lately, yesterday morning I woke up with a pillow beside me, I usually sleep using both of them to
support my neck and head but I woke up that morning with one on the other side of me. It was grooved as if somebody had been using it. I had a sore
neck, it couldn't have been me. That night I dreamed of the girl.
Last night, I was thinking of her again. Because I've been experiencing things with her my entire life I asked for proof that she was really with me
all the time.
It must have been around 3:15 - 3:20AM and I was just laying in bed, I said out loud that if she was around - If she could say something, I heard a
few noises from my laundry room which is right near my bed, but because I always hear things from that room I said that wouldn't be enough proof that
she is around.
I told her to touch me, anywhere.
A few seconds passed, and suddenly my back got a very cold spot on it, I mean I was freezing in ONE spot, and then soon my entire back... I put some
thought in to it, and I imagined this was this girl laying beside me with her body against mine or something. The strange thing is, I wasn't scared
whatsoever. I felt comfortable, but that sounds really weird.
So these things keep happening, and I am trying every day to communicate with her and hopefully one day I will be able to see her with my own eyes
Some people have told me it is possible she stuck with me because I was abused in that house, and she didn't like that, so she follows me and lives
with me to protect me or something. I can't help but sort of believe that as well, that she is a sort of guardian to me. Only because I've been in a
lot of situations where I should and could have died, but somehow I haven't yet. But that is only assuming things, and quite far fetched.
Why am I posting about this? I want to know if anybody knows anything about this sort of thing, and can share with me what I may be experiencing, or
what I should be doing in situations like this with her.
I NEVER feel threatened, but happy and comfortable.
I NEVER feel scared, or anxious when she is around.
I don't think this is a bad thing, whether she be a spirit, or a demon or what...
Speaking of a demon though - I will mention one thing my sister told me about what happened to her in the house. Her friends and her used a Ouija
board and something happened to her friend, I'll use her exact words because the message is on my Facebook inbox.
"Very long story short, one of my really good friends went into a trace and took on a totally different persona etc...It was totally intense, and
life altering, really."
Apparently her friend got 'possessed' or something. That house has always been reported very haunted, so I'm not sure if the girl did that to
him... Or another entity there - But without going off topic on the main post, can somebody please share ideas, opinions, or experiences with me on
something like this... I really would appreciate it, and knowing anything about this helps me a lot.
Also, how could I communicate with her better? I want to try everything possible. Because I want to get to know her and sort of build a
'relationship'. God that sounds weird and sick, but if I can find a way to start talking with this girl it would mean the world to me... We live
together after all, and she IS with me all the time... We might as well become friends, right?
Sorry if I sound crazy.