Oh my! So after reading everyone's responses and experiences... a few things really stick out in my mind. Maybe it's just one thing... but it's
something that has ALWAYS bothered me and I've been too afraid to start issues with my parents if I ask them about it.
I guess I'll start from the memories I have and then talk about the experience. I am (almost) 27. Female. I am half african american and half
caucasian. I was born with brown hair and brown eyes. My eyes are now green. And genetically speaking... they should be brown as that is a dominate
trait. I know there are loopholes for dominate traits and recessive traits. But my moms eyes and both her parents eyes are bright blue. My dads and
obviously everyone on his side of the families are brown. My one son has brown eyes, and my other got the bright blue. Looking at pictures... it seems
as if my eyes were brown until around age 3 or 4 possibly. I have one picture where I know for sure that I was 2 years old in and my eyes were brown.
(This is totally freaking me out! haha!) Sorry if I'm all over the place.
So the memories I have... I honest to goodness remember being 3 years old. I remember my 3rd birthday. I was sitting in my car seat wearing a yellow
sundress eating ice cream. I was with my mom and grandmother. I remember dropping the ice cream on myself. I also later remember falling out of my car
seat while driving with both parents, but we weren't in an accident. Neither of my parents seemed to be too concerned as I toppled out of it. (FYI I
only know that my memories are a fact as my mom has a picture of me in my brown car seat on my 3rd bday in a yellow sundress. Eyes were brown.)
Another memory I have is still being in a crib. According to my mom, she finally put me in a regular bed around 3 and a half. I'm assuming this is
around the same time as my birthday because I remember my moms replies to my questions. My birthday is at the end of may. But I was in my crib and
everything was pink. I know these could be dreams and I know kids see things so much differently than adults. But these have memories have bothered
the heck out of me ever since. It looked pink outside. And I swear it was snowing. I could see outside to our back patio and the snow seemed to be
falling peacefully. I was standing up, looking out both windows in my room and saw snow! And for some people who get snow, the clouds can make the
sky look pinkish at night.
But I awoke the next morning to bright blue skies. I remember being adamant about seeing snow and my mom said it was summer and we don't get snow in
the summer. Well ok then. So who knows what it was. I have never shared this with anyone because it seems likely I was dreaming it was snowing.
I have a separate set of memories... still probably around age 3. It could very well have been that same summer. This is what I have wanted to ask my
mother about. I don't want to falsely accuse her of anything though.
But we were sitting on the back patio which overlooked our backyard and some tall trees at the end of the fence. Suddenly the trees seemed to grow
very tall and had faces and were swaying back and forth and I could hear sounds. Like a voice. But almost as if they were chanting. I remember my mom
holding me and saying, "I know. I know. It will be ok." And she looked very concerned.
That same day (I assume) I remember driving back home from somewhere (Hopefully the freaking emergency room! I have NO idea what happened or why I
could have been hallucinating. I have my theories which I'll explain)
As we turned onto the block, I remember the grey house with a big chimney. I pointed it out as being something different. The house was grey. The
chimney was big and protruding. Almost comically.
I remember running outside later when my dad got home and saying "Dad! I saw the grey house!" He was with his brothers talking and distracted. I have
an uncle named Greg. He said, "Uncle Greg? Yeah he's at the house."
And my mom pulled me back inside. That house is now green with no chimney. It has been ever since then and I still look at it and remember what I saw
EVERY time I visit my parents.
This is ALL I remember. I try so hard to pull these memories into something that makes more sense. It has driven me crazy over the years. That is a
LONG time to remember something with sporadic timelines and details. But they are so vivid. There is no way I dreamed all of that.
Here are my theories... I was hallucinating. I react horribly to narcotics. Was never ok smoking weed when I tried it in high school. I don't handle
drugs very well. Maybe I got sick or injured somehow and I was on some sort of drug that simply made me hallucinate. I was never told of any sickness
or injuries, but I've always suspected something major happened to me. I have a lot of chronic issues that don't seem to have a cause. I also may need
a double hip replacement sometime in the near future. Not because of having children. Because I guess I had hip displaysia as an infant and my lovely
mother never treated it. (I reference her a lot because my dad worked ALL the time and wasn't around much). I started training for a marathon last
year and was having problems with my hips and that's how I found out. I also have horrible stomach issues which after having every test imaginable
with every specialist imaginable ran, no results to anything abnormal.
2nd theory. My mom being a little odd as she was a victim of severe emotional, physical and probably psychological abuse as a child could have
purposely done something to me. I have always felt as if she has resented me.
3rd theory. Maybe I had a cold and she accidentally overdosed me with cold meds. She has done it a few times with my oldest son and has mixed up meds.
(She obviously doesn't watch him anymore).
4th theory which I just came up with after reading all of this today... maybe it has something to do with timeslips. If anyone has ANY insight on
this, I would really appreciate as it has driven me absolutely nuts over the years. (Insight besides the fact I may be crazy)
GAH! I just looked at a picture that my aunt posted on facebook of me and my cousins at age 4. Eyes were green. I also looked as if I was "white". My
skin before was not too dark like you see some who are mixed race, but definitely a lot darker! Dark skin, dark hair, dark eyes all up until about age
3. I've had light eyes and skin ever since.
edit on 12-5-2011 by Denco because: GAH!
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