Originally posted by Cinquain
Is this the only situation you have difficulty trusting yourself in, as you put it?
For instance, do you feel the same paranoia when you're getting in and out of the shower, that you might slip and fall? Or chopping vegetables? Or is
it only the scenario where you're crossing a road?
I have the same issue, though I'm typically jumpy or flinchy enough as it is. I'm not overly paranoid or afraid, but whenever there's potential for
danger, no matter how big or small it may be, I usually imagine the worst for a brief moment with brilliant clarity, but it isn't crippling and
doesn't interfere with me going about day to day activities.
Admittedly I don't know very much about past lives, so I can't say I think you're reliving an accident or death from a previous incarnation. It may
just be you have an overactive imagination, to put it simply. If you want to clarify or give more details, I'd be interested to help figure out what
it is!
It's deft trust. Sometimes when i talk to myself i think about how it could be someone else talking to me. I cannot trust myself and therefore i give
myself the option which logic says would result in the least bit of wrong instead of the most bit of right. This is a high level of imagination it
seems but i'm sure there's a label to it. I wasn't hit by a car and i can be compfortable with a car driving at me... well not as uncompfortable as
i am with this.
There seems to be a debate in my head which says that perhaps in another universe this happened. Everything in the universe seems the same besides
this one instant. It's always to my right on the second street that i cross. It's generally a two lane street this happens. I guess now that i think
of it it's very specific. It's this feeling that i KNOW that there's no car there, but i will be understanding if i get hit because truthfully i
did not believe it in the first place. I am not a fool who allows smoke in ones butt. I know what i see and i am very sane. Actually a sane person is
a fool, but anyways, i am somewhat sane and i have a sharp sense of my surroundings. It's really this feeling of me arguing with myself that there is
no car even though i could be fooling myself.