reply to post by tommykidd
I also had a similar experience - a spiritual awakening - 18 months ago; although I now realize I had attempted to wake up several times in the past.
In addition to this I am currently - for the past 15 to 30 years - been experiencing something called 'kundalini'.
It is this kundalini which rises from the base of the spine and goes up these things called chakras - until it/she reaches the crown chakra at the top
of the head - which has now happened several times for me since 2009.
I have had direct downloads of information and knowledge that is found Nowhere - not in science medical or sacred texts. I have had a lot of
difficulty - in this pain-body (I injured myself very badly years ago and never quite healed myself) and just in general due to being a 'misfit' of
Kundalini is what westerners describe as the 'holy spirit' - the pentecostal fire - literally this Spirit which resides in every single human (and
possibly some animals as well)- but not every human being activates this fire - I mean Yoga and meditations was created solely for the purpose of
activating kundalini. I had never meditated or - done Yoga - whenever i try to go to a yoga youtube or meditation site I am physically blinded - my
eyes go 'dim' temporarily - i cannot view the video or web site. I've been guided to watch certain documentaries on TV and also guided to NOT
watch certain things on TV or the net.
I have been amassing a great storage of knowledge for some reason - not just online and memorized - but buying books from Amazon on every topic such
as Survival techniques, food storage, home wine and beer brewing, seed and bulb planting, soil amendments, medical tools and techniques, and just lots
of other stuff.
I live in the US, in Georgia, but I didn't live in Georgia before I awakened. I was guided to move here. I am meant to be in this exact location;
where i live right now - I think i lived here thousands of years ago - because i have been 'told' and shown that this land is sacred - of course i
believe that all land is sacred but this land (I was shown) was a 'burnt offering'. I recently found out that the previous owners of this land
burned down their house and a lot of the land was consumed during the fire itself. But the land was replenished - and now i am here as the caretaker.
Everything about this place seems familiar, like deja vu - and I think deja vu really is that we have been here before - just in a different body - or
perhaps a parallel world.
I have been shown how to heal certain disorders that modern medicine lists as 'syndromes' and NOS ('Not Otherwise Specified'). I have been shown
certain syndromes that can't be healed but may be prevented if one knew that that person or child was at risk. I have been shown that areas of the
human body that have been 'dormant' can be activated with simple exercises, and that those areas can directly communicate and take instructions from
our Divine energy & our Souls.
The downside - or Sacrifice - to all of this knowledge - for me, I mean - is that my eyesight is mostly inner sight now - I am losing my 20/20 vision
and have been for over a year now. I don't seem to be able to walk very well anymore either - except with a cane - but I have been accustomed to that
for 15 years now, so - no biggee.. But the eyesight - when i was a child (and every year since then) I practiced being 'blind' - finding my way
around my home with eyes shut - just using my hands and counting foot movements... now I know why...
I have never been a new-age believer, or religious, I have been an average middle of the road kind of person on the outside - and a hopeless dreamer
on the inside - which I kept protected. I have seen my share of tragedy and misery and death. I cannot tell you how difficult it is for me to type now
- with failing vision. I think i am supposed to write a book to help people, but I can't sit at this keyboard for long, and - i have never written a
book before so... I am waiting for instruction on that - i am pretty certain I need to climb higher up this hill before the book can be written,
because I still have many questions and I think I am supposed to heal myself before i can help others.. does that make sense?
Anyway i am very grateful for this topic here as I am very much alone and sometimes this is overwhemling to me; it is a responsibility that I can't
say no to - i have to see this through regardless of what happens to me personally. This is just one lifetime i suppose and I am no longer afraid to
die. I just wish it was easier and that I had support somewhere/someone. Maybe I am not supposed to have it easy, because it is not easy living and
knowing these things i now know - and waiting to help others, knowing that people are dying and are hurting right now because i can't help them yet.
so I do feel guilty for that, but i think that's the Plan.
anyway, have a good day everybody!