posted on Apr, 25 2011 @ 06:55 AM
I grew up in a Christian household in the rural North GA mountains, and was taught that the Bible held the answers. I began to question what I was
being taught when I realized that you are not supposed to question.
As I got older to many things did not add up. If God was loving and compassionate why then were there so many instances of incited violence
throughout the Bible where "God told me so". If God was forgiving, then why is there hell...
As a very small child (my earliest memories really) I was very in tune with nature. I based the calendar on the changing seasons, and could even
"predict" a storm by the way the wind blew. I found more connections with God in the woods than I ever did inside a church.
As a teen I began to ask why all of the other religions of the world were wrong. If God created us all, then wouldn't it be fair that he loved the
Buddhists and Hindus as well? Would he really send them to hell just because they had never heard of the Bible?
I began my search for answers.
I read everything I could get my hands on. Buddhist philosophy, new age spiritualism, you name it. I finally found the Pagan path around my 20th
year. I labeled myself as such (though of no particular path) mainly because it fit my personal beliefs in God etc better than anything else I had
I am still searching for the answers (12 years later). I see myself more as a Spiritualist than anything else since there is no "religion" that
fits what I know to be personally true.
All of that being said, this is what I believe...
There IS a Creator. I refer to this deity as She because it fits the voice I hear when spoken to. Call me crazy if you want, but if I listen
closely, She speaks to me. I believe everyone has the opportunity to speak with God, if only they are willing to listen. Nature is not separate from
God. We are not separate from Nature. We are Nature, we are God. Free will is inherent in all of us, though we do have a path that has been set
out. When we deviate from the path that will teach us what we need to know in this lifetime we get "smacked in the head" lol. There have been many
times in my life when I chose the wrong direction, and when the SHTF and I was rock bottom I could almost hear her telling me to come back. I do not
pray. I listen. When I have questions She answers me, though not always what I want to hear. If I ask "Why did this happen to me?", She simply
says "Why do you think it happened? I told you what the answer was and you chose the other direction."
I believe suffering is part of our education. How can we know what happiness is if we have nothing to compare it to? We all know what happens to the
child who gets everything they want... they become a spoiled brat. As parents we have to know when to let our children fall, if we catch them every
time they will never learn that it could hurt. I believe God is the same with us. She will not catch us every time, we have to learn from our own
mistakes. If we ask for help we will receive it, but otherwise we must learn our own lessons.
I believe in reincarnation because there is just to much to learn in one lifetime. We continue to return until we get it right. Eventually we will
become "enlightened", we will realize that this body is simply a shell, and that our souls are so much more than we can comprehend within these
There is soooooo much more, but I think maybe I have rambled on enough as it is.
Thanks for asking the question and giving me the opportunity to share my side.
I have no issue with any one being atheist, I can understand your point, though I will say this...
Just out of curiosity (if nothing else) sit down in a quiet place and listen, really listen. If you don't hear anything, that's fine. If you do,
you can label that voice anything you like... conscience, God, whatever. But I'd love to know if you do and what you think afterward!
Peace be with you