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Alot of lies were told to courts and there was a move that sew my girls move 130miles away,i was told a lot of lies around that and maybe thats what your picking up.
As i said i was in a dark place,i.m still in treatment and ongoing therapy
therapy treatment hospital
When i let my girls go you could say i abandoned them but in the end when they moved i felt abandoned so both ways really.
abandonment.I keep feeling a strong "deception" or "being lied to"
I will u2u you regarding this bit but if youwere on about the girls farther you,d not get anything out of my head as he,s not in or in control of my mind no more
i tried to focus on your husband, it feels like you were blocking me out..
I am still trying to see where these fit in but up til now they mean nothing.......but in a few years....who knows
I was 2 week pregnant in this pic so if your seeing a fetous,then this could be why...i also had a misscarriage before i had the girls.
i think that single mountin means my ex partner(the girls dad)As he was the only one stood in the way of me and them.............fear of flight..yes i am,never flown but dont want to.I.m also one of them flight or fight people so could refer to that posible.........judge of the courts who so kindlee said no she will have contact with her girls..........................................last and not least many acre of land.....the miles that is between me and my girls 130 miles i live in uk so thats a long way in our book lol.
a single mountain-fear of flight-judge-many acres of land
yes,lots,made to grow up way to fast!!!
1/ Sacrifices made ...in Teens?
we can take this two ways
2/ Separation from father.
i sure am,got 2 boys now and doing everything i should of 1st time round they are 2 and 3.my girls also come and see me for holidays and slept for the 1st time a few weeks ago.I.ll tell ya waking up with them all in the same house was a buzz i,ve never had before .
3/ Losses in the past, but making up for it now.
At 1st you stumped me on this one!!!!Until my boyfriend came and read it and was like"I,m gemini,my star sign"!!!!!!!He is the person resonsable for this pic EVER happening.As when i met him i was not fighting for them at all,didn,t even know where they,d moved and in my dark hour i thought"the girls are better off without me,i.m useless and waste of space"(the relationship between me and the girls dad was abusive pysical/mental).
4/ Little Gem/Gemma/Gemini???
This spooked me out!!!!As monday evening i was on about a picture my nans got its of god knocking on the door of your heart(light of the world its called)I,ve always loved this picture and was saying when my nan does go to higher places i want it as all the other grandchildren were all scared of it bar me.I take comfort from the story behind it and warms me.my nan would say "thats jesus knocking on the door of your heart,will you let him inn?".......still brings a smile to my face.
5/ A crucifix - given by Gran or mother.
wow my mum was told 2 years ago she had diabeties but the type that can be controled by diet and it is okay as shes got it sorted now with just minding what she eats .
6/ Relative with a blood disorder has caused concern, but is okay.
I did try to stop my sister giving up her daughter back in 1996 and even had the child for her(at the time i was 16 and hadn,t a clue)But i am always the nanny so to speak.When ever i,m with friends,im the one that keeps an eye on all the kids...often found digging for worms or picking flowers come on it is for the kids .
7/ Sisters children treated like your own. Or vice versa. 7B (Do you mother a child that isn't yours).
For sure,i use to hate being alone.But once i left my ex i took time out and built my home into a home and got to know myself instead of being what everyone wanted me to be!!!!!!.
8/ More independent now than in the past.
Spot on,only been saying the last few weeks that i,d like to go back to collage once boys start fulltime schooling,to train as a midwife .
9/ Catching up on Life/Education. A time of learning.
Full marks to you maya27.Its my time soon and like i said above once my boys are in school then i WILL make something of my life.its time to better myself now.I will always be a person that likes to help others and thats why i thought being a midwife would be spot on for me.
10/ Done too much for others in the past, future is about addressing your needs. Overall I would say CHANGES for the better was the main thrust of what I got from the pic you posted.
I,ve always been tee total my drink of choise is coffee,but of late i,ve been having the odd glass of wine or 2,3,4.so i think this could be saying to stick to what i know best(which ain,t wine lol)so i think i,ll start taking my coffee like i use to,thanks for the warning .
I forgot to add "Stay on the water". ????