dreamy vision

The destiny that’s within me
Of what I will and never be
Atrocity, just more pity
Undivided indignity
I will relieve what I believe
Not to be, please don’t deceive
And every night without light
Laying sleepless without sight
When the dark will not deliver
No shadow, still I shiver
What’s right? Get up take flight
Giver, throw myself to the river
Slipping what’s left of me away from you
Then every dream of you became dark blue
And every dream I know are dreams, it seems, of you
Why can’t they be real, why aren't they true
Inside your eyes, they realize they paralyze
But outside are they a pair of lies?
Not showing, wonderful bird, no longer flies
Had it been I was too shy? Without knowledge never to die, please again permit me to say hi…
-jkidd
1/18/99 (one of the first things i ever wrote, and first i ever won a contest with, and had published)