posted on Apr, 2 2011 @ 08:45 AM
I am so sorry AD
I totally know how you must be feeling, I lost my husband too 20 years ago. I was young and so was he when he died, and we had 3 small kids
The grief was unbearable, but like you I had to get a grip of myself because l had to deal with all the legal stuff and also take care of my kids
alone and help them with their grief too, when all I wanted to do was crumble into a million pieces.
The feelings of anger are a part of the grieving process, I was angry at my husband for dying and that my kids would grow up without knowing him, I
felt abandoned, and there were so many times I thought I wouldn't get through it. The desolation I felt - well it was indescribable
But I did get through it. I know from experience that you will get through this terrible time too.
Time really does heal - I can vouch for that.
My thoughts are with you AD, try to be strong and please take care