posted on Jun, 5 2011 @ 06:24 AM
OK, Im here because I need help and I'm scared, take a couple of minutes and read my case first plx:
quick info before reading the case:
first of all, it should be noted that I am not meditation practicioner, and I havent had any practice in anything occult too
BUT, I was intrested in occult studies for quite a while, and i came across some occult books (e-books) and have read some of them, but only for
couple of pages.. just was jumping through them
one of them I found here, and it was mentioned here before, book from Mr Sagan.
also it should be noted that im not into any religious community, though I often see myself as orthodox Christian, I am not baptised, it is just the
majority religion in my country
matter of problem:
1) last night I couldnt sleep so I read a book from Dostoevsky for couple of hours and decided its late and that I should sleep, because I have to
get up early and study.
then, since I couldnt get myself to sleep for couple of minutes, and my girlfriend came to sleep at my room for couple of days, and she was sleeping
in the room - so I couldnt do anything loud or turn on some major lights, I rememered throat friction from Sagan's book and started experimenting it
in his book he recommended (at least in begginer phase) not to do it at night, and to do it sitting, with spine and head straight - but i done it
at night and lying on the bed. I have also done it without any buzzing sounds, since my girlfriend was sleeping, it was only a bit increased sound of
breathing (no words whatsoever)
2) from the first inhale i have hit the friction, and i think i have felt it in my adams apple too.. i just knew thats it. so i started focusing on
my larynx like said in the book. i did it only for couple of minutes, then stopped and stood still to feel the vibration for like a minute (there was
almost none) and then i did it once again, a bit shorter, and also stood later to fell the vibrations.
during the exercise i felt something like light preassure in my cheeks, a bit stronger preassure in my throat and in the space between eyebrows,
and also a bit stronger preassure in my lungs.
i was just trying to be aware of everything, and not to use reason much.
3) after that, i was lying on my bed with eyes closed, and i started, right away seeing some pink colours, not so bright and clear, but i would
focus on them and follow them with my eyes closed. it wasnt hard for me to do since i kept doing that as a kid like a part of a play..
so at one point, i wasnt thinking with my reason anymore, and i felt in kind of the dream.. it looked like only briefly but it lasted more then
several minutes.. nothing special, just from what i can remember i was seeing some patterns and from time to time pink colour mixed with them (this
part i remember).. and at one point i felt like my soul was exiting my body, moving to the up and right, i got a bit scared, and opened my eyes
strongly. the feeling of "returning to body" was intense, not that it hurt me, but it almost litteraly moved me, it was like a boomerang effect,
first going out, and then returning at amazing speed back inside and i felt something i cant describe, like shaking my brain very fast, but with very
low amplitudes, like when you drop the rubber ball on the surface, so it makes one longer jump and then many jumps, each shorter then the prevous, and
in the end stopping and being completely drawn to the floor by the gravity - that thing, just speeded up.
4) after that i was a bit scared, and i knew there is something weird, because all that throat friction exercise and colours/patterns were somehow
familiar to me, and easy to find.. using throat friction doesnt require any effort from me, it feels natural
after that i had several dreams, mostly not connected and not important, they were just nightmares and i was sweating in bed, but first dream that
followed, or perhaps more of them werent just dreams; i could think reasonably inside, and it felt like i was spinning inside pink/purple wormhole,
when speed increased and i started feeling like on the rollercoster, i would break it by opening eyes. it happened once or twice, im not sure.
other dreams i find irrelevant, only thing i know is that i was scared and couldnt focus to dream about something "happy"
5) i woke up today morning, feeling great, beautiful day, and i wasnt obsessed with dreams until i told my gf. (i skipped the part that i blame
myself for having them, and doing exercise of throat friction), but later when i refreshed feelings i felt kinda scared.
since i read this thread (i opened my third eye in i regret it) long ago (all posts) and i seen some advices, like doing prayer when scared, i wonder
would that work for me, how to do it, whom to pray to? because im not christian and not religious, although i like to read parts of bible/kuran and
other holy books and they interest me
any advice would help a lot
thx in advance, it means a lot,