I really don`t know where to begin. At first, I thought I would write a short post to give a different idea and perception, as opposed to Silent
Thunder`s, as to what it means to be in Tokyo or in Japan during this time.
He decided to stay in Tokyo....I decided to leave.
I also live on a high rise building which shakes even just when there`s a typhoon, or a strong wind. Now with the big one last week, it is difficult
to describe how much this building swayed, jerked and jolted. And it was never ending. The after shocks were constant too. To the point that I
didn`t sleep for 3 days. I would go to bed with all my clothes on, including my shoes, ready to leave and dash at any time....But where do you go to
when you`re way up high? When the elevator doesn`t work? With the fear of fires breaking out in the building... and the fear of being sizzled alive?
It`s like being in an aeroplane that is about to crash. You don`t know if you will crash, you don`t know when and you have no control whatsover.
It was almost impossible to stand up and I was thrown from one side to the other as I watched and heard bottles and vases, pots, television and other
stuff fall and crash to the floor. And it was SOOO long. It didn`t really hit me until the next day when I started sweeping up the glass from all
over the floor. I was throwing things away and at that point wanted to throw everything I had collected in my house over the long years in Japan.
Everything seemed and felt so completely useless and pointless.
On Monday morning, I packed my rucksack with the bare essentials, passport, credit cards, etc..., a few extra clothes in another bag and the dog. I
was determined to get out, go somewhere, still sleepless, stressed and panicking, no destination, but I knew I needed to get out. First, I went to
say good bye to a dear friend and was persuaded to spend the night there. She lives on the ground floor and her house doesn`t shake like mine!
But the next morning, I got loads of calls from my foreign friends urging me and pleading me to get out. I wanted to go back to Europe, but the pet
hotel wouldn`t accept dogs at this precarious moment in time. I was certainly not going to abandon him so, with no real idea as to where to go, I got
the bags and the dog, of course, and headed for the station. We would be in this adventure together - me and my dog!! There were loads of people
queueing to buy tickets, with bags, screaming kids, pets, the lot! It took me almost an hour to finally buy my ticket.
Instead of Osaka, I decided to go way down south. Bought my one way ticket and left.
I`m still quite uptight, even after 2 days here, but starting to feel better.
It`s amazing - it`s like being in a different country, in a completely different reality over here. Same country but noone really understands the
gravity of what is happening up north. Mind blowing. Shops are filled with food, (unlike Tokyo where they seem to be rationing bread and milk at the
moment), no power cuts, life as normal. They see the news, devastating images, but haven`t touched the reality by hand.
Or maybe it`s me overreacting? Well, maybe not ..given that thousands of people left/are leaving/will leave Tokyo /Japan soon. I`ve lived this
situation first hand so I feel extra sensitive about it I suppose. In a way , I feel like the world, humankind and life as we`ve known it will never
be the same again. This is going to have a ripple effect on everything. Being too negative? Don`t know....
What`s next? I don`t know. I can`t even think about next week, next month or even sometimes tomorrow at the moment without being paralysed from a
feeling of intense panic. I`ll just wait for the full moon to pass this weekend (and there seems to be no good news coming out of that either...)
wait to see if the real big one hits Tokyo and then decide.
By chance - and this is the next topic I wanted to talk about - is that surfing the web today, I found that there is a mega earthquake predicted for
Rome in May. Exactly on the 11th of May. Here we go again with the infamous number 11!!! I always thought it was a Master Number. An auspicious
Finally....and I`ll stop after this!!......We are having wars and conflicts in various countries at the moment, initiated and caused by people.
Simultaneously, we are going through and will be going through more, `natural` disasters...But isn`t there a chance that these disasters are caused by
OUR negative, selfish and materialistic attitudes and way of life? If we all made a real effort to try to be more positive and loving, without
getting caught up in the futile, daily dramas driven by pride and money- would it be possible to change things?? How idealistic of me, hey?! Will it
take these disasters to help us change? Or will we be destroyed by them for our inability and unwillingness to change?