posted on Mar, 14 2011 @ 03:50 PM
Hello! I know there are A LOT of threads about this phenomena already, but I feel I'm on to something, and I'm closer to understanding. I'm still
very confused by what these are, as everyone has different theories.
I've researched online, and no one has a solid explanation. Just want to say that I am perfectly sane, and only come into contact with it while I
attempt to meditate. Experiences with these beings are very common and defined, so no "Maybe you should see a psychiatrist" comments, if you don't
The reason I am wondering is that there seems to be one interfering with my meditation, but almost speeds up time it takes to get "vibes" (within 20
minutes) while thinking about this being, but the vibrations/waves seem to coming from him/her (not my own energy). I have tried to speak to it, but
it doesn't seem to want to communicate verbally, but it definitely understands what I'm saying. When trying to communicate with it - which I really
feel is a bad idea, but I can't seem to get rid of it - I feel waves of different temperatures and moods coming from it. But whenever I try to open
my eyes to stare at it, it tries to move just out of site so I can barely see it, but I can sort of see a wispy black mass and sometimes it's very
very dense and black, and other times somewhat translucent. I have asked to stare at it face to face ...I'm never doing that again (despite being
skittish and shy, it seemed more than willing to do this).
Other than opening my eyes every now and then to check if it's the same entity, I don't get a negative feeling from it, but whenever I asked to see
it face to face, I asked "What do you want?" and I immediately felt intense fear, evil and anxiety being almost injected into me. I screamed almost
as if I had no choice as the shadow instantly took a vague form of a hooded being, with it's hands stretched toward me. The entity seemed to go
inside of me, and made me feel extremely cold and hallow. It made a gutteral shreek as it did this. I struggled my way out of the sleep paralysis, and
sat up. I felt defiled and void of any emotion. This was a very bad experience.
I cannot tell if I am actually communicating with the same one, or if there are different ones in my home. But almost any time I encounter with it, it
gets into my personal space, and tries to get as close as possible. But for some reason, even after it scaring the living crap out of me, I generally
feel comfortable around it, which is odd.
I've tried my best to be respectful toward it, but it seems to be trying to get my attention more in the past few days.
Overall, I've had mixed experiences while meditating and having OBEs. While going out of body, the lighting in the astral either dark and gloomy (I
can sometimes see black stuff on my walls), or very bright and sunny. When trying to "see" with my third eye reminding myself to "see what is in my
room", the room is dark, and slowly brightens as if I'm adjusting to the lighting?
Other times I see certain entities, and try to examine them, but they stare back at me and it feels as if my awareness is starting to thin...and I
instantly go back to my body, as if they don't want me staring directly at them (a young and very depressed woman in particular who I've seen laying
next to me. Her face turns black before I return to normal awareness).
In my attempt to get rid of it, I burned sage throughout my home, and for the first time, I tried to listen to binaural beats in attempt to lift my
mood a bit. For the rest of the day, the energy in my house felt very positive. And later that night, while trying to sleep, I felt as if something
was hugging me from behind, but in a loving manner. But in the morning, as I woke up, I saw a small black spot on my wall, and it seemed to start
growing, I immediately got up and thought "Oh no..."
If anyone wants to communicate with theirs, set up signals. Such as "Poke my left leg for 'Yes', poke my right leg for 'No'. They'll cooperate.
And remember, if try to open your eyes to stare at it you will feel drawn into it's negative energy, simply close your eyes and hold back from
feeling any fear.
It's also worth mentioning, that a couple weeks ago, I've seen my 'doppleganger' consecutively in my dreams for a few nights, also while waking up
from one of these dreams, I saw this shadow panicking and zipping around my room very quickly making guttural noises, as I looked around, I saw a
white apparition staring at me from behind my _
I'm on the fence with this shadow being's nature because of this. There may be a possibility that this "shadow person" phenomena symbolizes a
personal spiritual issue with an individual that must be overcome.
I'd like to hear everyones experiences with these things.