reply to post by starhill
Ok.. where to start. I didn't really intend to post any more today, I just took a long hiatus from the internet to get away from the interference of
electronics for a while and I'm still kind of wiped out from this week but I tend to scan over the topics just to see if anyone's genuinely asking
for help from some various ailment or supernatural problem before I log off.
That said, I'm willing to give a bit of credence to the idea that you're being manipulated but I should make a big caveat that it's not the primary
source of your problems. First off, let me explain something, but read the whole thing before you get insulted. You're crazy. It's something you're
going to have to learn to live with. You have a mental disorder, I would be willing to wager it's a chemical one and you're going to need medication
for the rest of your life. The proper medication and dosage and combination of medications may take a while to find, but it's well worth it.
Now here's where I get to the point that makes you less upset. I'm crazy too. I take two medications, relatively small doses of them and despite my
chemical disorder, I'm probably one of the most sane people you'll meet. There's a certain stigma to being "broken". Some people will say that
it's just wrong to admit there's anything wrong with you. You have a disease, it's only right for yourself and those that love you to seek
treatment for it.. but make no mistake, this is simply a disease that targets the chemicals of your body.
Skewing perceptions causes you to change the way you think.. however if this disease affected your insulin production you'd have something called
diabetes and instead of being derided and thought of as mentally insufficient and unstable, you'd be treated with kindness and sympathy and a bit of
accomodation. The first advice I would give you is to not trust your senses until your reality lines up with the reality of others around you. It's
ok to sound crazy as long as you're trying hard to be sane, in my opinion. If you wonder if something is real, ask someone around you if they saw it
too. If they're a known prankster, take them with a grain of salt. I've had fun at the expense of a paranoid schizophrenic by talking backwards very
quietly down the hallway from them and I'm not proud of it.
If you feel you're being tormented by something.. seek the company of those that love you. Develop your willpower, force reality to come back whether
it's a hostile intent doing this to you or your own mind doing it to you. This very well may be a hostile entity or more than one, but either way you
need to treat it the same way. Supernatural beings are just as susceptible to a strong will and focus as mental disorders.. use that to your advantage
and it'll help you in the long run.
As far as any assistance or advice I can give you.. belief. That's important. If you're truly mad, then the belief will work against your
subconscious. If you're truly being harassed by something evil, it will give you protection against it. You need to.. for lack of better term..
develop safe zones and protections. You said you wrote a sigil. To you that sigil had power. Whether it was altered by something else or not, you view
the sigil with significance. Create another one, one of protection. One to shelter you. You must make this symbol absolutely your's and have no doubt
that it can do what you intend to do where you mark it at.
I have to stress that dealing with both problems have the same solutions in this aspect. Please don't take the assumption I'm saying that you're
insane and I'm trying to coddle you or that you're being attacked and I'm trying to keep you calm. These two tools address both cases and it's
simplest not to guess which answer is correct and simply take the course that corrects both.
The illness doesn't need to control your life, but it IS a part of it. You have to learn to accept it, subdue it, then master it. Once you are the
master of your illness, it won't have any more hold on you than anyone else that properly follows the treatment plan of whatever disease they're