posted on Mar, 8 2011 @ 07:57 PM
Not sure. Would have to read the bible again to see whether it's right or left or ...
I think it was society that turned me away from it. I just grew out of it. School and things I learned. I couldn't fit this world and the one in the
bible... together. Maybe it would have helped if I had known some liberal christians? No idea, but I can't see myself ever believing again. I look at
everything from a naturalist perspective now. My mind is open enough for the idea of god, but I just don't think god or the universe revolves around
us in any way. We're a life form. There're many life forms on the planet. We will probably start finding them in space and on other planets. It just
seems like our world gets smaller and smaller and hte universe gets bigger and bigger. It's hard to hold onto a religion or tradition when everything
is changing so fast! I wish I could change better than I do.
In dark moments sometimes I wish I still had my faith because it centered me better. When yo udon't have a faith to turn to it's hard to find comfort
I think but if you do find it it might be more lasting. I don't think I've found it yet, but I hear some have. I don't know what price they paid
On the bright side I think the changes in me make me more open to the world. I'm not fearful fo things anymore I don't look for the devil in
everything. If an alien was here with me, I would see another lifeform. When I was a christian I would have seen a demon or something supernatural. I
don't have any fear of people who practice other rellgions like I did whne I was a chrisitan. Whe n I was a christian people with other religions
were a threat since they were blinded, or I thought they were, and people who're blinded don't spread the truth (as I thought at that time). The world
was a fearful and sometimes very spiritual place when jesus stole my heart. But I have moved on, and now I must find things in this universe to fill
the empty spot. Wish me luck.
I'm not spiteful of christians. I envy them. I love them. I love everyone. I have no fear of atheists or satanist or witches or you name it. To me
they're people. Their religion is their own private concern.
Imagine what it would be like to no longer fear demons or evil. Woiuld be great eh? That's what it's like for me. But it came with a cost. I no longer
have that spiritual feeling with a group of others! And I cannot seek the lord in prayer and find comfort so cheaply. I lost some and gained some.
Personally, I think I'm still in debt. The rational universe leaves a lot to be desired.
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