I'll start this off by saying, I do not like complaining, I do not want anyone feeling sorry for me, because I (at least think) don't feel sorry, or
bad, or anything.. Just, flustered.
So there are a few things I want to post about, and I'm going to post it here because the only other forum I belong to (mixedmartialarts.com) I post
using my real name and I do not want this to be associated with my name, just in case someone takes it the wrong way.
That all being said (lol)
I'll start with cancer. I personally wanna give a big F U to cancer. There is a very nice lady that I used to work with who is literally down to
her last days due to cancer. Now, I'm not sure what caused her cancer, I never wanted to ask, but one thing that always bugged me was that, even
after diagnosed with cancer, and knowing what smoking does to your body.. she still chose to smoke. Now, as a smoker, I could not reasonably tell
someone not to smoke, it would be hypocritical, but I do think if you are to get cancer, the first thing you would want to do is kick the thing that
could have caused, or at the very least accelerated that cancer! Just my humble opinion, and again, she is free to chose her lifestyle.
Now, we worked on the same team, and we were always real friendly with each other, I even came to her house on occasion and will obviously be
attending her funeral when it comes. I am saddened by all this but I know that it will be better for her to pass, than to live in the pain she is
currently in. In this respect of my "rant", I just ask ATS for positive thoughts, prayers (Im not personally a prayer, and I hope not to offend
those who are alike), or whatever energy you would like, to hope she has a less painful passing, and gets to her next chapter in peace.
A more concentrated rant....
I was lucky enough to have a child while I was married, and that child is my sole purpose of existence. I would do anything for her, she knows this,
well pretty much anyone who knows me knows this. I am however, divorced from her mother. That creature on the other hand, as bad as this sounds, I
would celebrate to learn of her demise.
Last year, we filed our taxes joint married (as we were still married at the time) and when it came time to divide the taxes, she decided there was
nothing I could legally do to reprimand her of not sharing the tax return. So she walked away with 7k. Now I was THE main worker, and she stayed at
home with our child. Then we got divorced, and upon advice of my attorney, I did not pay child support from the temporary order (a whole different
rant, I will leave out because lets face it, ATS doesnt wanna hear about it.. lol) until the amount was corrected on the final decree. Well that left
me 4 months "behind" on child support, which I have no problem paying back, however...
My tax return this year was taken
They take out more than they themselves admit they LEGALLY can, or have the right to (I have to wait on a refund from them at the end of each month,
which most months isnt even the correct amount)
UGH.. anyways, I will leave that mess alone.
My final "rant" which is more of just a "plea" if you will, to fellow ATSers on a few things that I have noticed here.
1) I know a lot of you are of like minds, and can "add fuel to the fire" so to speak, but if a subject is so far out, and probably doesnt deserve
response, do as I do, and do not respond negatively. It adds attention to the OP
2) If a post is made, which has an older, similar topic already existing, trust the fine moderators of this site to do their jobs and close the new
thread, or merge, or whatever they do. It is snarky, rude and just makes you look as though you want a taste of power when you point out "this
thread has already been made, god dont you use the search?" Now I know that some are helpful in their meaning, by pointing the OP to the topic to
join in discussion, but some do it for nefarious reasons, and it shouldnt be tolerated
3) Some of you, I worry about what you post. Your opinion is yours, and I value everything you say as that, and I do not judge based on that.
However, you may want to re-evaluate your life, if what you post is sincerely how you feel. There are SOOOO many good things in life, whether it
makes me a "sheep" or whatnot to enjoy some of these things, I really dont care. If you are that miserable in life that everything is a set up,
trap, or deception created for an "end game" then chances are you do not have access to friends, family or support in essential areas which is
important, and it (IMHO) reflects a great deal of depressive state. Basically, find SOMETHING to be happy about, even if its contributing to "TPTB"
Have a great weekend coming up ATS