posted on Jul, 16 2004 @ 01:22 PM
Am I awake?
Today is Friday July 16, 2004 and I am sitting behind my computer punching these keys.
My wife is off to work and my child is with her grandmother, my dog is home sleeping and I am here at my store. The funny thing is after being on
ATS for just about a week I am starting to question if I am actually awake or asleep? I have found out so much from reading everyones theories, posts
and all those amazing threads but I still am having difficulty believing I am awake because I would of never dreamed that the world we live on could
be in the possible state it is in as of now. Terrorist plotting to blow up the United States, Alien life forms walking amongst us and Martha Stewart
getting only 5 months in jail for something that anyone of us would of done wed be there for at least 10 years or more. I actually was sitting on my
deck last night looking up into the sky when I realized, I cant actually be awake because if I was, everything would be normal, the most I would ever
have to consider would be do I want to let my daughter go to her friends house or should I have them play here. The real question is: Does ATS and
other informative websites make you more aware of whats actually going in the world or do they just strip you of your Reality. Does the fact of
knowing things of this nature make it any easier to live or does it soak up everything about the world you thought you new and spin it way out of
control so you personally cannot recognize which way is up anymore. I am personally glad there is a board like this to challenge so many peoples
beliefs and theories on topics most people would not dare to discuss but tell me this, If I ever wake up will I be able to find it? Just a thought
from someone who is questioning what is real and If I actually am awake.