First off, Hi to everyone on here. I've signed up to this site after a couple of weeks reading through hundreds of pages of interesting thoughts,
theories & discussions. To be honest I've been reluctant to sign up, despite being deeply intrigued by what I've seen. The reason for me holding
myself back was I've seen some quite personal attacks on people who come forward with their feelings, and alot of the time it feels like they are
insisting the person is mad...BUT...
I would have been EXACTLY the same as the attackers, until about a month ago! Since just before xmas 2010, I've been a hardcore skeptic and always
believed science would explain everything, but something changed, and this is the tricky part. No-one can explain fully what the change is, how or why
it happens, and the purpose for it happening, which makes it easy for people to debunk (like I said I would have been the debunker too)...however in
the past month or so a change seems to be happening to me too. I've not talked about it until recently because the looks you get just make you feel
mad but you yourself can feel it, and its not insanity!
My experience started with crying for no real reason. Just an immense overwhelming feeling of being happy! Then I started to worry when I was crying,
but felt sad. Classic Psycho behaviour isnt it lol Well thats what i thought, but then all of a sudden I opened up and accepted it, and then the
dreams started...just very odd ones, they felt like ordinary dreams at first but then they started feeling more like an out of body experience, in one
of them, it felt like I could feel the stars and planets moving, and as insane as it sounds, it felt natual, like I was part of it all.. and that I'm
seeing something going on in space (i don't know what/if any purpose to it was but it felt like it had a purpose, just I don't know why just yet,
but its like I know the answer is coming) so when I woke up I just thought well that was weird.
It was about this time I started reading some threads on here about planets/stars etc.
Then the biggie came lol...
I had a normal day, not good, not bad, just normal...went to bed and had what I can only describe as a possible life changing event. This didnt feel
like a dream, which is why I woke up my wife and said something along the lines of: "What the *$"R, was that about"
The "experience" I had would be what is typically described by those who have NDE.
I felt like an immense light just emerged, like it surrounded me, and that I too was becoming "the light" I expected it to be blinding and to want
to shield my eyes as it started but it wasnt like that at all...I totally get it now when people say this light is made of immense warmth and love!! I
started to move towards it and merge with it, It was like my soul was the light and all of a sudden my psyhical life was nothing to worry about
leaving, this was meant to happen. So I started merging with this light and for a split second, I get scared, I feel mind literally say "^&3% I
don't like this, I want to go back" and I turn to see my wife, I stretch out with one arm, and then for another split second I turn back to the warm
loving light and say to my wife "No, its ok, I have to go"....
...I wake up! I guess in more ways than one!
For a total skeptic who berated my mam for going to see psychics, and always saying its science and research that answers/debunks these types of
things...I am now starting to feel a little red-faced! This "experience"...I really don't know what word to use, but experience is the closest lol,
yeah this experience has changed my perspective on everything. I don't know what has changed or why, but I too like a few others it seems, have this
feeling of great change coming, I at first felt like I should be scared because their was going to be pain for some, but the longer I have these
feelings, the more it replaced with a feeling of, they will live forever somewhere out their, and that psyhical sacrafice is needed to change this
world as we know it.
..So to finish this long winded introduction off (sorry) I should tell you that all of the above was still not enough for me to share my experience.
The game changer for me was 20minutes ago I rang my mam (yeah the one I berated for years) and we were having an ordinary conversation, she just asked
how my son was (hes got tonsolitits - and sorry i cant spell) but then she said something along the lines of her partner feeling a bit diffrent
recently, and my reply was "tell me about it"...I start explaining the above, and to my complete amazment the reply I get is "Person 1 (I wont use
his name) has had that, it happened just before xmas, he woke up and said wow that was weird" My mam said he explained the same as me, a tunnel of
light!! ....what any of this means I have no idea, but I'm honestly feeling their are too many coincidences now for this not to be something
more...who knows but hey-ho I guess if their is or isnt, we will all find out soon enough!
..So their it goes, thats my introduction, Im not sure I can add anything more to this site but I just had to share it all after that phone call!
Thank you all for taking the time to read it, and please dont abuse me too much lol
...I'd love it if anybody else has anything similar to share. I have seen a few comments from people having something similar but I'd love to see
them all listed on here!