posted on Feb, 17 2011 @ 10:10 AM
Well I tried to write this thread and realized it's difficult for me to put into words what I'm thinking, mostly because it comes off too much about
, me me me, although I don't want it to. So I'll just try and sum up the feeling that I've recently had, and maybe some other folks here have had
the same or similar feeling, so we can discuss it:
The feeling is a connection, almost a spiritual or supernatural one, to certain things I've been fascinated with my whole life but don't know why
exactly. Example: In kindergarten I apparently wanted to be a mapmaker, and since I feel like I came out of darker time in my life, my feeling and
fascination with maps, terrain, geography, etc. has come back.
Also an ancestral influence that has been socially and culturally cut off. My family doesn't really look back on it's roots or countries from which
we came (I'm part German, Maltese, English, Irish, Native American, and possibly a bit African). It's very sad that I know almost nothing of the
ancestors or their culture from which I came. It's just the nature of my family and how we lived and grew up. But I can identify certain feelings and
thoughts which are still very much derived from these places.
The strange thing, I feel my strongest characteristic is the very small amount of Native in me. I say this because of my love of nature and living in
nature, and also the dreams I have, and the nature of them. I have a lot of dreams of shape-shifting animals and encounters with what seem to be
something like a spirit guide?
I'll just stop there on my personal experiences not to bore, but has anyone else a feeling of, I've been thinking this all of my life, now I realize
my ancestors have something to do with it (aside from genetics and culture passed down directly through stories and family members).
I'm not really sure if this is a clear thread, I guess just a discussion about how anyone here interprets the thread as it is...seeing where it goes.