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Originally posted by Chewingonmushrooms
I have felt an urgency of late, beginning mid January and have done things that I have been afraid to do in 3 years that has kept me back. I have definitely changed my priorities and no longer want to conceptualize and instead want to experience. I haven't felt this way since 2001(exactly 10 years ago) when a complete change in consciousness happened within me by a certain catalyst that I am not allowed to speak of in this forum. That sent me down the rabbit hole for a few years when I researched all that I could about the real nature of the world, and why it was in the shape that it was/is. Soon after that I experienced a burnout simply out of frustration and inexperience, which caused me to "go along with the machine" and allow myself to become "normal" (asleep) again. Recently that has changed and I did a complete 360(or better put 180) which I do not find as coincidence.
Don't get me wrong I am not trying to say that I am fully awake, but at least I am peaking with one eye open and trying my best to open the other. Things that have been obsessing me lately is to find that which is not speakable in this forum, to learn how to grow organic produce, and try my best not to continue the wave of consumerism. I have also felt an urge to move and pull away from where I live now (NYC). I am no longer fighting my intuition, no matter how much my analytical mind objects, and have lessened my possessions 3 fold since that time (month and a half ago). I know some might say it's all in my mind, but in all honesty, that's fine because they are entitled to their own opinions. I no longer feel the need to convince or debate that matter as it has become sort of a inward thing for me.edit on 17-2-2011 by Chewingonmushrooms because: minor grammar corrections
Originally posted by AdamJagger1111
reply to post by VelvetSplash
*Mod Edit - Removed Offensive Quoted Post*
Originally posted by thepixelgarden
I've been reading a LOT - I feel like Johnny 5 from Short Circuit.