Hey guys, here's a synopsis of who I am, why I am here, and what I hope to achieve by finally becoming a member....
I am not positive when or where I was when I discovered ATS, but I do know that as soon as I stumbled upon this site, that I have been hooked, and I
visit multiple times daily.
Growing up I was a standout student and athlete, had a tight knit family, not a whole lot to worry about, and overall a very comfortable life. That
is, until I was 14, and I got the surprising news that my parents were divorcing. This was my first taste of heartbreak and suffering, something that
changed me forever. I moved out of the house I lived in my whole life, my father's side of the family cut us off for the most part, and although I
had an extremely loving and supportive mother, she was dealing with her own heartbreak, and I don't blame her for not being perfect. Long story
short, I "didn't feel right" and after a doctor and psychologist visit, I was diagnosed with depression and put on Prozac. I'll get back to
I have to say that my depression was quite a double edged sword. While it affected me in many negative ways, it also opened up a new part of who I
would become. I started to question everything. Life was not as I knew it anymore, and I realized how complex and mysterious the world is. This lead
me to getting more in touch with myself spiritually. I dropped sports for music, sleepovers for books, and made many different friends. I had found a
new identity. This got me back on my feet.
Now, let me fast forward to this past year, skipping a lot of important events, but I realize I am not writing you guys a novel. After years of more
depression and severe anxiety (that I could not explain), I started to drink quite a lot, and pretty much hit rock bottom this past summer. I was in
the hospital multiple times. The more and more I began to learn about the world, the more I didn't want to be a part of it. I felt like I didn't
have a voice, and there was nothing I could do to change anything. I almost gave up.
Then something changed. I quit drinking. I started to eat well, began meditating, and I felt like a brand new person. There was still something that I
wasn't comfortable with, that being that I was still on anti-depressants, and I no longer wanted any chems in my body. I was on a higher than normal
dosage of Effexor XR, a drug I have learned the evils of and experienced first hand. Although it helped for a period of time with the anxiety attacks,
I still never felt "myself". I also knew something was wrong when I would miss just one day of taking them and I would start to feel dizzy,
nauseous, and got terrible headaches and what I can describe as "brain zaps". I recall my doctor telling me I could possibly be on them the rest of
my life. When I reach the proper requirements I will most definitely be making a more in depth thread on my experience with being medicated.
My new years resolution was to get off the meds. Yes, I understand that you are supposed to wean, but after the research that I did about Effexor, a
lesser dose is just as hard to get off of. So I quit cold turkey. This was the absolute, most insanely difficult suffering that I have ever gone
It has been a month now, and I am finally feeling alive again. Things taste better, the air smells better, sex is better, I smile more, laugh more,
I'm more creative, I have an attention span again. It is a night and day difference. If anybody is interested in reading a few of the Effexor
withdrawal stories, this is a good site, and I experienced each and every one of the side effects.
I'm sorry, I do not know how to link it yet,
but I'll get there soon!
In conclusion, I have been here reading about things such as fluoride, aspartame, medications, "chemtrails",etc.. and all the other evils being
forced upon us, and I have joined in hoping that maybe I can help even at least one person by sharing my experiences and insight on certain topics.
I hope this is a proper introduction. It is nice to meet you all, and feel free to ask me anything.