posted on Feb, 9 2011 @ 02:16 PM
I do not know if this is in the right section or even the right forum, and if not please feel free to delete.
Without getting too detailed into my life, however if you have any questions I won't hold back in answering. I've been debating on making a thread
like this in a while.
Bottom line, I'm depressed. I know many of my issues, I have the knowledge but I'm struggling to apply this, and utilizing wisdom.
With the state that my family is in, the medical states that my mother is in, my place in this world and my social life that I noticed I'm slowly
pushing away because of my selfish unmet needs, that's built up for a few years, I'm in a state of depression. I do get angry quite easily but the
choices I make I always weigh and make sure I do the right thing, regardless of Karma or anything, I hate a dirty conscience.
My eyes feel tired most of the day and I find myself struggling to enjoy simple things in life. My brothers suggest a psychologist however one of the
biggest things that bother me is, I do know I'm loved but I don't feel compassion from others, a psychologist will give me advice, advice that I
probably know but not the compassion I desire. I am open to medication however I still believe that medication is risky and is exploited in numerous
ways. I hope to avoid that route at all costs. I'm not an athiest, but I am not religious, I'm more spiritual and philsophical. Recently about 2
weeks ago, I've started opening up to Jesus Christ. I of course still have few doubts that I disclose to him even in prayer, due to my questioning
and logical nature, and the way I fancy these conspiracies.(I'm not a tin foil nut, I do not fear my world.)
I've been feeling more at peace, but I'm still struggling from one particular event that has happened and as minor as it is, it troubles me deeply.
ithe purpose of this thread, I'm sorry for dragging this for so long,
I want you to send me a prayer, a prayer full of good intention and positive energy. For healing and light. I feel that power lies in focus, faith,
and in numbers. Regardless if your athiest, religious or agnostic. Send me some of your energy please.
I am a stern believer that you manifest what the state of your mind is in, and I want to be in control of these emotions. Thank you very much for your
Also if you wish for the same, tell me a bit about yourself so I may focus on you directly and ill send some your way. Thanks again.
(Sorry for any spelling or gramatical errors I was in a hurry lol.)