reply to post by Stop-loss!
Forgive me if I'm reading this wrong, but what I think you are saying is that you feel like the evil you have done was what happened while you were in
the Middle East? If you are speaking of those times specifically, unless you are one of those that did bad things intentionally and own your own
agenda, then I can't really hold anything against you... not that it's up to me anyway, but on a personal level, I think what you did over there was
what you were programmed to do by the military. It was your job. Now, you're out of there, you see what was wrong with it and you have regrets?
Please forgive me if I'm seeing this totally out of context. If I have indeed gotten it right, then the fact that you are waking up and questioning
things is proof enough that there IS good in you. I don't know what YOU did as an individual while you were there, but it's hard for me to look down
on someone who was doing what he/she was taught was his/her job, but is now questioning it. Again, it's not up to me AT ALL... I'm just trying to
explain the whole good/bad thing, from my point of view and based on what you've said.
I can see how easy it would be to come out of there with grudges against certain cultures. I hate that prejudices exist, but if you were taught that
certain people were bad, yet you can look back and see things from the point of view of those people, then you still have plenty of good left in you.
I think it's all about seeing the bigger picture.
I am one of those people who believe there is good in everyone. Granted, I can see where those who think that good and bad is relative, are coming
from, but I have to believe that there is something in us that makes us see how some of our past actions were wrong. There's a reason why we have
regrets and wish certain things had never happened. There is a reason why you are questioning all that went on while you were over there. If you
were "bad," you just wouldn't care at all.
I agree with DancingBear, who said that people are people. Some of us are more educated, some of us have more money than others, some of us are
better at seeing the "big picture" than others, but when it comes right down to it, we were all born onto this little place called Earth as human
beings. We are each raised to believe in what is right and wrong and who is good and who is bad, but I think true good comes in when you start to
question what you've been taught to believe and make up your own mind. If you regret the things you've done (and I'm saying "you" in general, not YOU
specifically) that you think were wrong and you feel bad for those things, then I think that is proof that there is good. I think we all have good
in us... it's just up to us as individuals to "find" that good. Some people never find it, but I still think it's there.
I'm sorry that this is long and rambling and I'm sorry if I complicated it at all, while trying to explain how I see the whole thing. It was hard to
put my thoughts and feelings into words, but when it comes right down to it, you are thinking about the actions of you and your fellow troops and what
happened over there and wondering how your actions affected the people on the other side of the war, then I think that goes to show that there's
plenty of hope.
edit on 2/10/2011 by gemineye because: (no reason given)