posted on Feb, 8 2011 @ 03:51 AM
If I started talking about coincidences at work, I would not be able to stop. For years i thought a certain company I worked for had taken contracts
from the government (it's what they do... build training equipment for the dod and dmv)....but these contracts being of a "no equipment" type of
thing...more of a program of ideals. I talked to a couple of people about and they insisted it was paranoia. Now i find out that there IS such a
program... at least one dealing with soldiers suffering from PTSD. No one seems to know who is in charge of this program or what they do.
No one wants to be the ones to get caught holding the ball when it comes to the government and government contracts and I couldn't care less about
all that #. Not if it doesn't involve me... ah but that's where the # starts getting deep.
I don't even want to get started referring to the
subtleties that have crossed my path over the years.
There are people in this world who seem to get off on over complicating things and they are sick and twisted ass people. I am very angry today and I
have no *one* person to blame... and I really don't want to blame anyone anyway. I want the ball to start rolling because only a few individual
perspectives are pivotal enough to state anything that is actually "effectual" in my eyes anyway, concerning this that is... but I will remain
hanging in suspension and I'm having a hard time putting my finger on the "why". Tossing around a few ideas and none of them are good. none. I am
really struggling to make excuses for others today. I'm running out of ideas and the proverbial ceiling is coming down on my head. I have this to
look at today. for a long time people have known certain things about another person's life... perhaps more than they even know about a particular
thing and in stead of offering encouragement over the course of decades, what they've offered is abuse. looking back, it's understandable almost to
see how some people could be so stupid.... but even now it persists.
People are un#ing real. If there is such a thing as karma... as a planet, we're #ed.
i'm not saying that just by watching the screwed up news. It's bleeds out in things even average people do on a constant daily basis. they have
grossly misappropriated their positions in this world. Sometimes I think we all have... even myself. Some is it is much to obvious though to be able
to stomach. I swear i think pharmecutical companies are putting # into people's meds to give them this false sense of reality. I swear it's like
THEY think THEY decide what reality will be.
Keep it up and see what happens. that energy is going to go somewhere and it's not going to be pretty when it happens. people need to get straight,
they need to get right with their damn gods of self righteousness and self importance.
It's hard to maintain the thought that a large group of people could make things go so badly... very hard. causes many of my beliefs to crumble.
causes me to think the worst of the worst... that they can't possibly be the ones to blame and the real problem lies within the very fabric of the
soul... that we are all just living breathing lies and that there is no love without association. There is no love for anyone or anything that does
not first and foremost satisfy one of your carnal needs. This is why we don't help each other. there is nothing to gain in it.