posted on Feb, 2 2011 @ 12:03 AM
i had a similar "experience" in 2009, and i had another one 2 days ago. i've been obsessed with finding out what it was, i'm leaning more towards
saying it was an out of body experience, which encompasses more than it sounds like. the same process as the first time got me there, basically
thinking deeply about consciousness, existence, the "beginning", and the singularity before the beginning aka big bang. usually when thinking of
that stuff, especially since it happened the first time, i make it a point to do what i can to not think of it because i know where it can lead. so i
start trying to think about anything else like trying to remember the names of everyone i went to high school with, or just other pointless things.
for some reason i couldn't get away from it night before last. i was t the point right before falling asleep, then started thinking about the sun,
and eventually moved out from there deeper into space, at this point it started to seem like a dream (which i'm sure it sounds like but somehow i
know it wasn't a dream, i'm just not capable of explaining it in what we know of as language). i was moving fast, but it wasn't like star wars or
anything with white lines passing by, it was just movement. i have no clue where i was getting pulled to(and by i, i mean my consciousness), but the
farther i got away from our solar system, the more i felt plugged in to whatever it was i felt plugged into the first time this happened in october
2009. whatever it was that had me feel like i was plugged into something that had all the information about anything in the universe, and the point
where if you're plugged in you automatically know the answer to anything you or anyone else has ever asked all time through all existence. the
farther i got the deeper the understanding got, then i all the sudden i got that instant sense of hyper awareness, realized what was happening, felt
like i could see the entire universe, space and time included, as a whole, but with the burden of still trying to be a sentient individual being, and
literally the instant i thought "i'm not ready. i don't want to do this. stop." i got slammed, and i mean SLAMMED back into my body. however far
the distance (distance being the only word i can use to explain something that can't be explained fully in verbal language) was that i traveled was
backtracked 10 times faster than it took me to get where i was, like i had a rope tied to my consciousness from my body, and the primal instinct of
"oh sh*t where am i, i don't want to die" pulled me back to my body faster than whatever was pulling me out of my body towards it, whatever "it"
was. the point between when i got back to my room and saw myself from above, and the point where my consciousness was back in my body was absolutely
terrifying, and just like the first time i literally bounced off my bed, stood up, and grabbed the f-ing wall because i had the very same feeling of
free fall like i had the first time. there have been only 2 other times where my heart was beating as hard as it was at that point. it wasn't beating
fast at all though, it was a really slow heart beat, but it was like it was trying to burst through my chest. it seems like the experience was shorter
than the first time maybe because i could realize what was happening sooner, but it was way way more intense.