Topic started on 31-1-2011 @ 11:00 AM by GraveDigger
There is no doubt in my mind that this thread has been done before, I just can't find it... Could be my lack of sleep that is slowing me down and
making me struggle to do so, whatever.
Anyway, here are my reasons why I personally believe that it is true, everything does happen for a reason. Of course, some people see everything as
coincidence, but after putting all of these things into a more 'mature' perspective, I've realized that coincidence just seems too far fetched.
As far back as I can remember why I believe that things do happen for a reason, is many years ago when I had a few friends stay the night, these were
old friends who I hadn't seen in about three years because I moved schools and started living with my Dad permanently. I was visiting my Mom and
decided to have them stay the night there. We were on the computer, one buddy was talking to his girlfriend and I got this one girl's number, who was
her friend which was with her.
We started talking a lot, and during that time I was very depressed, to the point where I wanted to kill myself.
Fast forward a few months, her and I still talk and depression has just gotten worse and worse, I text her one night telling her that I plan on
killing myself the next day, and she just phones me crying all night.
The next morning her and I are still texting back and forth after I got what I thought would be my last sleep of my life, and she had somehow finally
convinced me that I shouldn't do it, and that took a lot of convincing. I phoned my parent's and got committed to a youth psych ward sort of thing,
I was there for about a week or two before I convinced the doctors by lying to them, that I was okay...
Now, while you're reading this, this far in only you might think, okay a girl made him not kill himself. There's more to it than that, it's only
Since that time, I've experienced a lot of different things and have become a much stronger person, and had my first real serious relationship
shortly after that time, although most of the time was spent with this new girl and I being drunk and fighting, I met a really great person who would
soon become the biggest part of my life.
For about a year, I spoke with her friend Alex online, we had a lot of things in common and were both interested in the exact same things, before we
met in person we started considering one another brothers.
Finally, after about a year we got together one night and went to see a movie, we opened up a lot more in person to each other than we already had
after a long time of talking online, and eventually we started hanging out with the same people. We all made new friends, both being normally outcast
people, it felt really good for both of us.
Through meeting all of those people, I acquired an even better relationship than any I ever had, which taught me very much. It didn't work out as
drugs were a big thing in her life, and I was getting tired of doing drugs so much as I was forced to go to detox once throughout the relationship
when I became completely homeless, and dropped out of school. It was a learning experience, and once I got out of detox we were both going to try and
Things didn't work out though, as always. But through that girl, a few of her friends and still my buddy I mentioned, I was introduced to a genre of
music that would forever change my life.
It's a genre that a lot of people frown upon, but that is not the point at all.
The point is, it's become the biggest part of me.
At first, I didn't like it... It was rap, what's to like? Through the time dating the previous girl I was far more interested in metal, and punk
rock. We all went to punk shows and metal shows together, even that buddy, as we both got each other in to different music. But after drugs stopped
being a big part of my life, I started spending more and more time at home by myself, just me and my computer.
He followed those steps, and again we were talking online constantly. That's when I gave this genre of music a real chance.
It took a while, but eventually I really got in to it, and downloaded one album.
Fast forward a month and a half, and I noticed my entire library of music was no longer punk rock and metal, it was almost 100% horrorcore rap.
And right now, you're thinking big deal, he found a genre of music. It's not that simple.
Once I turned sixteen, i was the ONLY thing I was listening to, the genre spoke to me like no person or music ever had. The lyrics contained
everything about me, as I am still haunted by the way I grew up to this day, I think that is the main reason. I can go in to details, and will because
I think it is suitable for this thread, and my whole explanation for this ridiculous theory.
Throughout my childhood, I was abused a lot physically, as well as mentally/emotionally, which is a big reason why I had the depression. My mother,
and her husband both hit me a lot for little things, I can't think of any reason in the world a kid should get hit, and I got hit for anything.
My older brother and me were close kind of, but when we got together for too long we were like an accident waiting to happen, more so an incident
rather than accident. We got in a lot of physical fights, once ending up with us both in cells over night and having a restraining order.
I got bullied a lot in school as well, and never really had any real friends which is why I cherished this one so much.
Anyway, that's enough of that... So horrorcore rap became me, it was a part of me now, not just something I listened to for entertainment.
About a week or two after I turned sixteen, I decided I would try doing something different with music.
With that, I grabbed the crappy computer microphone I had at the time, and came across a large number of instrumentals. I recorded my first song, poor
quality and total garbage. I won't even let people download them anymore, they're off the internet completely.
I released a demo of about fifteen tracks, one of which was professionally done with a friend in Victoria, BC, Canada.
That was what started it all, and it is still only beginning.
I've now released that demo, and have a full length album that all sounds professionally recorded. I have about three hundred fans in the USA alone,
and I have never been there to perform, in fact I have never performed anywhere.
I have a label a city away from me that wants to sign me, it's all a matter of me moving there, which required jobs and money.
I've had many other artists ask to collaborate on songs with me, and finally I have found my calling... It all started with one terrible relationship
that I once regretted entirely. I also forgot to mention that the relationship where I was drunk constantly and fighting with the girl, made me a lot
of enemies with a lot of her male friends. Not because I did anything wrong, they just don't like me. I still get walked on all over by those people,
and that is just one of the prices I have to pay for what has come from it all. Being bullied hurts, but I have finally found my 'calling' so to
say, and have a lot of other artists respects, and have made many fans already, in less than a year.
If you've read this much, most of you might still think... Whatever, it's a coincidence.
And that's totally fine, we're all entitled to our own opinions.
The main purpose of this thread is for me to share my own experiences on why I choose to believe that it's true, and also to see if you guys have
anything similar you'd like to share? I'm sure we all do, things happen to us every day, we just need to look at the big picture some time after,
and see what really came from our possible poor choices, and realize the positive outcomes it has brought us.