I'm hating a lot of things lately. Things... and situations, not people, at least that's a good thing.
I hate it when people tell me I should feel blessed with what I have, but I can't feel that way if it doesn't feel right, nothing feels right
anymore and I hate it when they don't understand that.
But what I hate most of all right now are hormones! That's right: hormones! The ugly little things that have us like puppets on strings, triggering
emotional outbursts and steer our desisions. They make me hate everything and create the illusion that nothing feels right!
For the last one and a half year I've been supressing my hormonal cycle with medication (for health reasons). Since last week I stopped all the meds
and are slowly regaining my natural cycle again (for other health reasons).
It's a mess.
I realized that while supressing the cycle I was more balanced then ever, never had one emotional overload and could think rational when dealing with
problems... and life.
But now, it's like the hormones are the puppet master and I'm the biggest puppet on planet Earth!
so I'm wondering, when are we "ourselfs"? I feel more like myself without hormones... so does that mean that every woman out there is not herself?
hm.... maybe I should have been born a male instead of a female, now that would explain it
let's see what else I hated today:
the constant rain and cold
the mess that was waiting in my house when I got home from work
my employee calling in sick during sales
the mail I should've gotten two days ago and didnt get yet!!!
having wet and cold feet all day from stepping in a puddle this morning
skipping lunch because of to little time
the feeling of hating everything
yea, I'm grumpy... can't help it, and it's not even that time of the month yet
pitty the husband! (he doesn't seem to remember how to avoid me) poor guy...
and oh, I also hate spell checks!! puh.