posted on Jan, 13 2011 @ 03:32 PM
So I discovered ATS after hearing about the site during my research on Jared Lee Loughner and found this site quite intriguing, even more so when I
discovered this board in particular. I have only been delving into energy and the discovery of my spiritual self etc. for about 6 months now and I had
hoped to find people who were more experienced and able to potentially advance myself at a quicker pace
I am disappointed , or perhaps a little self satisfied, but that is a distracting emotion and won't get me anywhere.
From what I can tell from the posts here their are many who have advanced much farther than I have and those who have been doing it for longs amounts
of time are relying on crutches or misleading and overly complicated methods and beliefs.
But I digress
This past month has been a very hard time for me physically, mentally and spiritually. I allowed the clowns to get to me and they very nearly
destroyed life, maybe a little bit of luck or a little bit of compassion from somebody I angered saved me, but it was a bad time nonetheless. It also
changed me in a way. I was a very dark soul and in ways I still am, but my path shifted. I pursue positive emotions and compassion now. It has been an
interesting shift, such small things can bring me to tears now as I physically feel the emotions that people experience, even if they may not. the
physicality of emotions is nothing new to me though, its just the compassion and love that I used to scoff at i now embrace.
Also in terms to weird things I have been experiencing, the past two nights in particular when I lay down to sleep I begin to feel unnaturally
uncomfortable in my skin, like I am straining to escape. I get very uncomfortable, itchy and can't stand wearing clothes. If I lay completely still,
my arms in particular experience strange sensations. they feel like they are trying to separate or split into two separate pieces, almost like how you
would feel when you split from yourself during an OBE but not quite the same. I also woke up this morning with an extreme feeling of something being
wrong. This could be attributed to many things though and I am not ruling out a smaller personal reason yet