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Originally posted by Visitor2012
On this spiritual journey, have any of you stumbled so much, that you're beginning to believe that you will not survive your spiritual rebirth? Maybe at first you felt you were one of the chosen, but now you're feeling like you're going to be one of the fallen?
The up's get high, but the downs get really low. Sometimes I feel that I must go onto a cave to protect me against myself. Duality I know, but it can be very difficult on the road to forgiveness and pursuit of physical/emotional freedom.
Care to share your though?
As a little background on my spiritual experiences, I have experienced higher self, spirit guides, matrix, angelic beings, light beings and Akashic as well as the deciet that conjurs in the realm of our quantum reality. Even so, the road is a very difficult one , sometimes it appears darn near impossible...
Originally posted by Visitor2012
Sometimes I can feel evil boiling in me for no justifyable reason. This is such a lonely experience despite the help that is all around me and within me. At times I punish myself, drifting into depression and tugging with cause and affect. I am much to strict with myself at times and punish myself very harshly with just the slightest infraction against my spirit. My spirit is already Perfect, but my brain isnt. .....at times.