OP states he was born in the year of the Dragon. that would be 1988 (or 2000, but i do not think he is 10)
that puts him at about 22.
a quote from medic.com:
"Psychotic symptoms (such as hallucinations and delusions) usually emerge in men in their late teens and early twenties and in women in their
mid-twenties to early thirties."
when i was at that age, i went through a very transformative and difficult time, believing that indeed, i was "the One". not in the context the OP
talks, but in a context that was faithful to the mythologies that i was attracted to at the time. non-the-less - i was "the One".
this led to all manner of misadventures and some very difficult times for myself, and for those close to me.
i too also "smoked a little weed".
i eventually healed from my "episode" and have learned many lessons from it, (though there are scars to this day that linger). in fact, i work with
youth in the mental health field and serve as a counselor from those who suffer from similar experiences.
but now, here is the catch... i could not say that the OP is not 'special'. i would not recommend he forgo these powerful 'insights' he is having, and
to forget about it. that is impossible. he is changing. something indeed is happening as his mind is coming to a new sense of spiritual/psyche self.
in fact, he may be undergoing a transformational stage where he comes to understand himself in a greater context. the world does need shamans and
mystics and these esoteric wanderers have a Right of Passage quite different then, say, your local banker.
Nostradamus did say that in order for one to develop more "psychic powers" (if you will) the mind needs to 'cracked'. in other words, one's paradigm
needs to be thoroughly questioned and even destroyed, in order to begin to see and feel the world in a new context. this is not a bad thing. but
without a degree of guidance and humility (and some humor), the path can lead to some fairly twisted places. again, i know first hand.
so my advice to the OP - be still in nature. focus on breath. ask the questions. let the answers come. don't force them. seek. be open. transform.
heal. slow down. seek guidance. there are monks, teachers, priests, professors, rabbbis, the cool old lady down the block, wise people of any manner
of order that can help you gain perspective. let the mystery of yourself be revealed in time. no need to force your story onto it.
instead of "THE ONE"... now, i prefer to think we are all "A ONE" we all must fulfill the highest potentiality of our truer self.
corny, i know, but it makes it no less true.
sorry for the long post, but i sort of wish someone gave me a spot of advice back in the day. maybe i could have saved myself a few years of pain (and
snuggled with a few more bliss-filled ladies, instead of wandering graveyards thinking i held THE key to all of humanity....ahhh the delusions of
edit on 26-12-2010 by mythos because: clarifiers