holy cow, next time I buy a mattress it's going to be a waterbed mattress. the mattress I have came with the bed I bought which was expensive too.
I'm definitely going to turn my bed into a waterbed.
there's a whole bunch of other # I want and am tempted to buy and one of the things is like 5 hundred bucks. if I get that I have to wait to get the
other things one of which is a wii and another is a trampoline and another is a hammock and another is expensive cream, which I don't mind waiting
for that # but i feel so incredibly guilty but it's like i want things all of the sudden. Is this christmas doing this to me? I should have none that
if I started having money to spend, I'd be spending it.... but damn I want those things really bad. oh yeah, and a countertop dishwasher...see?
Arrrggh!...it's like a list I have been saving up for years and now that I have a little bit of spare cash I could get all those things in
approximately a couple months (although some of this # can wait till spring) and the most expensive thing I don't have to pay for all at once but
it's the most vain item. Part of me really really really really wants to start trying to buy this list, like starting right now...like my finger is
on the mouse button waiting to make a purchase and I don't EVER spend money like this lately and this is soooo selfish, because it's all for me. No
one else..well actually, people could benefit from some of the things I intend to buy but it seems like all my greed fueling this and I'm sure it's
not the most responsible use of money.... but I need stuff. I need "things"
whew... that was unloading some guilt there. I guess it's my decision to make. I don't even know why I'm #ing around because I'm going to spend
the money anyway...dammit! I was supposed to save a bunch of money and but something even more expensive...like land or a car. Jeepers!
Ok... I think I'm ready to make myself feel insanely guilty. GOD I hate this feeling! I have a feeling that a lot of people have felt this way over
the holiday season with all the stuff they have bought their families. I told everyone not to get me anything although i know some of them will
anyway. I didn't have time to go shopping because the person's vehicle I use was doing shopping and is always busy during the holiday with their own
stuff. I know of one thing I'm getting that multiple people can use but I am going to get it next week after the holidays die down... no one expects
it or in a rush for it.
I shouldn't put this off anymore. If I don't order it I will never have it but it just seems like a christmas present to myself and that just seems
wrong on all sorts of levels.
...anyway, sorry to ramble but this thread was about buying something expensive and I am just beside myself about spending this much money on
something. I imagine the OP would feel the same about spending that much money on a mattress. That would kill me to spend that much on a mattress.
I'm switching to simple plain, easily replaceable waterbed mattress. That reminds me, I have to buy some lumber. This will give me something to do
OOOO...I can buy a real saw now!
omg this is never going to end. I need a serious distraction. I feel myself being very indulgent about things. I've been eating lot's of chocolate
too, practically indiscriminately eating chocolate. It's been a long time since i have allowed myself to spend any real money... it's always bills
bills bills...food if your lucky.
Dammit, I can't help it. There is stuff that I want right now and I have the money to buy it. Grrr! All I know is if I buy expensive cream I better
get a boyfriend after all this trouble.